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Drama Series

2007-11-22T05:27:00.000-08:00

I am becoming a drama series addict! Catching the latest drama series in HK on crunchyroll! LOL!

Anyway, for those who still reads this blog, go check out this drama series which is about dancing, called 'Steps' (舞动全城). Reminds me of the dancing theme for orientation and the upcoming international dance festival.

Not too bad, I give it 3.5 stars out of 5. Go check it out... it is in cantonese though.

friendship

2007-11-08T05:49:00.000-08:00

21:46pm

Just came back from class outing, even though it hasn't officially end. They are still scooping the ice cream somewhere in clarke quay.

Damn, I shouldn't have went home with my parents!!!!!! It's such a rare occasion (yea.. 11 people is a lot) and I'm "retreating" at this time. I felt like going back to clarke quay when I was on my way home.

Then I walked into my house, switched on the TV and my laptop. There is nothing nice to watch, no emails to clear, no invitation to play starcraft online, it is as if there is no reason for me to be back home this early. Sigh. It seems that I missed out lots of the good stuff this time.

I think what clemence told me a few months back, before the London trip, is really true. It's not what movie you're watching, it's not the price you have to pay for the dinner (not even the height of the chair! HAHAHA) but it's about the company you have. Sounds a bit philosophical here, but true isn't it? I mean, when you are about to die, you won't wish for your money, your nice clothes, your posh cars to be with you, but rather, you want your close friends, your relatives to be by your side! I think that really shows what we treasure the most.

Damn... I don't even know why am I typing this out when I should be there enjoying my ice cream...

human relationships

2007-10-21T08:29:00.000-07:00

I forgot to talk about something in my last post! I know I might sound like a retard with poor memory, but I think it was significant for me to blog it here. (though I don't know how many people will be reading this...)

As I was saying about how I got rejected in many ways last week when I was doing my CIP, there is this one rejection which I was rather happy about. So I was going around and asking for donations, then I approached this couple. I actually felt quite bad interrupting them, as they were enjoying the presence of each other. But in the name of charity, I still went up to them. And guess what? They showed me their clutched-hands with the sticker/flag on it! They were smiling at each other and you must be wondering, do you have to do such mushy stuff when I'm asking you for 10, 20 cents? But then again, I feel happy for them, coz they looked really close and it is the first time that I feel happy about being rejected while asking for donations during flag day.

Human relationships... such an interesting thing to observe.

PW weekend...

2007-10-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

went out for CIP on saturday and yes, it's flag day (again). yea, how boring can life be.

Hi!...
Hi!...
Would you like to...
Would you like to...
Would you like to don...
Would you like to donate to...
Would you like to donate to Boy's Town?
Hi! Would you like to donate to Boy's Town?
(20 cents)
Thank you! Have a nice day!... HEY! your sticker!

The interesting thing about doing flag day is having the chance to observe people! people of different age groups, social class, backgrounds, ethnicity etc. I'm not an aspiring antropologist, but observing people can be really funny at times, if you discount all the persuasion and the sweat. You get rejected in so many ways!! Some people will choose to make a big detour, some will say no, some will be saying, "no change", some will just brush pass you. But the most ironic rejection that I've got was people nodding their heads! So does nodding your head means you recognise that the society needs help, but you are not going to do anything about it? not even 10 cents?! I'll pity those volunteers who are going to do flag day to collect money for them 20, 30 years down the road because they didn't donate 10 cents someone who needed their help!

flag day aside, I had a very good chance talking to Trent on saturday during our lunch break. We talked a lot about the school, sapphires, council and SJI!!! I truly realise how difficult it is for capable individuals to come up with an ingenious plan! Everybody's opinion is so insightful or their suggestions are so innovative that we are limited by our own ingenuity. There is so much that we can do, but we are always limited by one thing or the other. To a certain extent, I think people live to make get caught in catch 22 situations, i.e. there is no such thing as informed choices.

PW

2007-10-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

PW sucks man... its boring and a waste of resources. i don't see how "creativity and innovative" individuals can be nurtured out of this when we have presentations have to be standardized and every group has to use the same laptop and all the lousy fonts and effects of Microsoft 2002.

saying that the whole school is going to do PW with that software is no excuse! the whole world is turning to vista and office 2007, so why should we follow microsoft 2002? since the whole point of PW is to be creative (like real), why can't you people just give some space for creativity?

shall move onto something else.

looking back in the past few years or so, i realised that being nice and caring to people around you can be quite tough. when u try to be nice, people around you will become suspicious of you, sparking interest and suggesting reasons why u are nice in the first place. is there some ulterior motive?

tried to be nice to some people around me and i realised that there will be two most probable outcomes and two not-so-probable but you surely want those two.(probability... right.)

ONE: they stay away from you. "this person must have some ulterior motive, so better stay away" in the case of opposite sex, "this guy likes me. EW! stay away". well... u still say "hi" to each other when u see him/her on the bus, its not an end to a friendship anyway. but at least, you know your limits.

TWO: it gets harder and harder to be nice, caring and blahblahblah. coz u took it to the "next level", you fall harder each time you make a mistake. you try harder to climb back up again (and make up for your mistake)! well, that's good, you cherish this relationship (any relationship, no particular ones) and worked hard to solve the problems that comes along with it. but there is a limit to how nice you can be:( . beyond this limit, either you or the other person/people will "explode" on you because of the slightest misunderstanding you can never imagine. and that will be back to square one. what a vicious cycle!

THREE: YAY! BFF. I love you and you love me, let's stay this way and marry each other if we don't marry anyone else. this is great! but the probability is not that high.

FOUR (the highly unlikely one, but you surely want it): well, this only works on THAT one person of your life. so spend some time working on it and be more patient this time round. (learning from the mistakes you made from the other two cases of course)

breaking free!

2007-10-02T06:45:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO promos are offcially over!!!

I'm having mixed emotions about this liberation from mugging. Definitely, I'm happy coz I'm offcially cured from the MMS (Mega Mugging Syndromme) after a horrific month of mugging from end of class till 9pm in the library. (not to mention the artic-conditioned library during the late hours) I also get to do what I want and perhaps sleep a little bit more. Most importantly, more time with family and my grandma who flew over from HK in August, only to watch me mug my ass off everyday.

End of promos also means the pressure buildup of the dreaded PW. The thought of it just spoils the entire mood. In addition, I will have to get back to my research attahcment two weeks from now and do something to try to bag a silver or about award in SSEF next year. 20 days from today, we are getting back our results and I hope that I won't get the same result as my CTs, which is totally terrifying. But then and again, you gotta have a taste of failure before knowing the sweetness of success.
(Quoted from Varun)

Have a semi-screwed-up feeling after I handed in my last paper, which was totally horrible!!! The Bio structure questions are freakin' long and the essays were tedious. For maths, I forsee that I will lose 15 marks because of careless. For chem, I forsee that I will get 10/20 for MCQ. For econs .... I don't know. Just pia the essay for the whole of 1 hour and 30 mins not knowing what crap I'm.. crapping.

I shall not write about my expectations this time round. The last time I wrote my GREAT expectations here (an intentional pun which the lit ppl will know), the value of "standard deviation" was positive infinity.

Now let's move on to other interesting stuff/observations that I made for the past month or so.

LONDON!
Still reminicisng the days in London when I could wake up at 8am everyday and only attend two lectures with a 2 hour lunch break! Quoting from Jem, "Life's great". However, the moment I set foot on Singaporean soil, I got the MMS and lost contact with the friends I made over there. Perhaps I should start working on this.

Talking about friends, I realised that I haven't been keeping in contact with some of my non-school friends. People like Jerome (As long as the imposter Jason is not appearing on this tagboard, it shows that Jerome hasn't been here for quite some time). Thethy from China, Jess from Cech Republic, Venus from HK, Wilson, Arthur and Ivan from Australia. Okay, the list shall stop here...

Back to london, I shall post my LIYSF photos asap. Try not to be jealous okay! haha.

Appearing Offline
I observed that quite a fair bit of people like to appear offline. I'm wondering why these people appear offline for the sake of appearing offline? Might as well don't come online at all if you don't want to be disturbed, right?

Studying partners
I find studying "partners" (erm.. or friends) are extremely crucial. SOMEBODY should know why "partners" are important. wait.. I mean partner, no 'S'.

When you are sitting in front of Andrew Cheong, you are looking at a straight A's student and you are definitely feeling the pressure when you listen to him talking about how many people died in the Tangshan earthquake.

If you are sitting in front of Andre, you are saved from the evil clutches of every single maths question that NJ maths teachers can throw to you because he is practically the human calculator with an Intel Triple core processor microchip in his brain that functions at lightspeeds.

When you are sitting next to Jiafang and co., you will feel that you are the most mechanistic person in the whole wide world as they lead the NJ Liberation Front (new party) and stand up for the Arts at all costs! And if you are sitting next to Jamie Chin, please protect your notes at all costs as she will just go high and start drawing on your notes. What's worse is that she writes german, a language which you don't understand at all (though most probably it is not going to be any form of complement). You will also feel that you are most boring person on Earth while you watch them highlighting their history and literature texts using highlighters with colours across the entire spectrum of light. BUT, you will feel how fortunate you are when watch them swallow the entire set of history notes and all their Great expectations into their brains while all you need to do is punch values into calculators. So please do give SOME applause and look as if you are very impressed.

When you are with the "Bros", you will you are bloody studious because they were playing DOTA 2 hours before their paper.

When you are with Elaine (Siew), you will learn about every single drama series from channel VV55 down to the smallest detail. In addition, elaine will include her very own commentary and her thoughts about every single character. call this value-added service at no extra charge as elaine siew derives a lot of satisfaction when she narates to you the entire episode. Though she has some talent in analysing characters, she chose not to take lit, a subject which requires people to analyse dunno-how-many characters.

But whoever it is you are studying with, whether it is mutually distracting each other or putting heads together to solve a maths problem, we are still working hard for our straight A's which seems more like a holy grail at the very instant when I handed up my papers.

So much fun blogging about people here! Little observations that make life a little bit more interesting and fun.

Colours
I was strolling outside the library one of the nights and saw all those people who got colours for their respective CCA achievements. First of all, I feel happy for them, especially for the people whom I know. It’s good to see all their efforts and hard work being recognized by the school with such an occasion. Get to see all the proud presidents/captains going up the stage and talked about their stories of success.

But some bitterness and envy came along as I realized that my CCA hasn’t been performing for the pass 11 years! The last time NJ badminton got colours (if there were any) was way back in 1996! And like what ms oon said, the next time badminton get colours will be the year where NJ produces a president scholar. (HAHA!) Not that im pessimistic, but I don’t see NJ badminton going anywhere near top four in the years to come. Then I asked myself, I have been in this CCA for three years, what can I do or contribute to make all these years worthwhile? I have no idea.

The ironic thing is that all the CCA groups, from Western Dance to Chinese Orchestra, which fought with us over the usage of the hall, won something. This makes badminton very “zhor dang”, a waste of space. These people get “scolded” by us when they cross into our courts, and yet, they are the ones getting something. We sounded like some bossy people who really thought that the hall was built for the purpose of badminton. (I still remembered that time when we declined to allow WD to practice in the hall for their Aristal because we were having our nationals.)

To a certain extent, Colours very much reflected how much the school supports each CCA. All the CCAs that got colours were the performance arts groups and a handful of sports CCAs. Where has all the diversity went to? We kept on saying that we are a school with many diverse options offered, but yet, we see the school supporting a few sports CCAs! Funding has been the major topic since dunno-when, and every year, the small CCAs are still struggling to manage their finances in one way or another. During the recent FGD with VP Admin, I asked him about how funding for each CCA is decided and which CCA would be given priorities? He subtly admitted that to a certain extent, meritocracy will be employed here. Gosh! This is will become some sort of real world situation where the poor gets poorer and he rich gets richer - how good CCAs will be given the resources to maintain competitive in there respective fields while the not-so-good ones will have to fight over the “scraps” left behind by the achieving CCAs. I guess this is the point where meritocracy just spins out of control?

just some little thoughts... shall go back to mugging for chemistry spa now.

life sucks..

2007-08-16T08:37:00.000-07:00

dreams - shattered.

reality - cruel.

Life sucks after coming back to Singapore. Worked like a cow (or worse than one) for the past week and only manage to pick up by that little bit of work. Worse still, tutors are not willing to give make-up classes.

some tutors (I shall not say who) even openly commented that going overseas for exchange is no good, wasting my time. who's to blame? ask MOE then. when I was in London, 99% of the people there are having their holidays and treating LIYSF as a summer programme. Only we, the singaporeans, were busy with work and have tests when we come back. (I just realised that Mc Claurins are tested for the the maths test on tuesday - SHIT...)

I feel damn stupid in classes. Went into chem make-up lecture today and realised that there is an energetics quiz. I thought I would be able to pull through it. I thought it was easy.but in the end, my answers are not what everyone got. Even cat, who just revised like an hour ago, got the answers.... ~sad~

then I lost Silvia's bio olympiad file and somebody has to rub in and obviously trying to point out that I'm a totally irresponsible person and did not even bother to look for it. hello? there are classes okay! and given the sorry state which I (stupidly) put myself into, I do have many other things to attend to...

I'm crossing my fingers for tomorrow's mock spa for chem and bio. I'm totally unprepared. My readings for the make-up prac were totally wrong even though I did the experiment 4 times. I have no idea why.

I think the only people who empathise on my situation is my PW group (which happens to be the slackest thing among all other work such as integration and market structures). THANK YOU!

Somebody save me.... please?

London

2007-08-01T15:07:00.000-07:00

London! Yay! First time in Europe. I feel so lucky that the weather here turned out to be pretty good after all the raining and flooding (well, some parts of UK is still flooding). We are having blue skies and white clouds here, the temperature is the best that you can ask for. Not too hot, not too cold. It's like virtual air-con. The best is that I get to sleep until 8am every morning (though my body clock wakes me up at 630...)

Fish and Chips...

I don't know why everyone talk about fish and chips when we talk about London. I only had my first fish and chips after 5 days here. It's not bad after all! the Fish is pretty big, but I don't like the soft and chunky fries, not crispy at all.

Lectures...

HAHAHAHAHAHA. I think I slept quite a fair bit in these lectures. Seriously speaking, some lectures are quite redundant here. For example, there was this lecture about bubbles (yea.. those that you blow when you are bathing) 90% of the time was dedicated to dip the shapes into the soap solution and show how bubbles are formed. pretty much like what a clown does. So you must be wondering, why would I stay up to listen? Even the person who gave the "word of thanks" was more exciting than the entire lecture. But of course, the australian girl who gave the "word of thanks" is a really good speaker, 100% gaveller. Well, there are lectures which are good and fun, such as the one on Chaos and Fractals. Think I shouldn't put too much technical jargon here, but that was the most interesting lecture I have had so far.

Waiting...

Gosh, I think organisers of this programme are seriously paranoid about people not being punctual for their events. They make us arrive at the venue of lectures half an hour earlier than the stipulated time. Sometimes, we don't wait indoors, but outside, where the chilly winds just blow across our face! Another funny thing is that they make the lecturer wait for everyone to quieten down before he/she begins. The converse happens in Singapore where everyone sits in the lecture theatre and wait for the arrival of the guest speakers. There are instances where we even stand up and clap while the speaker walks in. People here in UK have really funny mentality. We Singaporeans, are just as flexible and only choose to arrive at the venue 10 mins before time. It is totally crazy for us to wait outside and do nothing.

Youtube and Harry potter...

We do have some free time here. Since I've been quite "potty" recently, I went to Youtube to watch some interviews on the cast of HP and Order of Pheonix. Of course, we have the three main leads whom kind of grew up with the rest of us. Also watched the interview with Bonnie Wright and Evanna Lynch (Ginny and Luna). I think Bonnie Wright gotta to change something, if not, her role as Ginny is not doing any justice to Harry Potter. She is going to kiss Harry in the sixth movie!!!! The kiss with Cho Chang has created so many big ho-has. Can't imagine her's. I mean... (this is not being sissy) she is like... okay, shall not comment too much. Secondly, Evanna Lynch should just change her name to Luna Lovegood. Coz I don't think there is another person on Earth that will be as "dreamy" as her. The way she talks, the tone, the pitch, simply everything IS Luna, though she doesnt have the looks of really blur person. But I do like one thing she said about HP is that it is a story that takes us out of the world that we are living in and still about teenagers growing up. This is something which makes HP so successful after all these years. I don't think anyone can replicate such a global phenomenon again in the next century to come.

Regrets

2007-07-29T15:28:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry...

Forgetting to bring my poster along was one of the biggest mistake I would ever make in my life.

Shouldn't have presented my project to this girl when the assessor was around.

I'm sorry Clemence (though you wont see this), I've just spoiled the record of having all 6 singapore projects getting into the final round of LIYSF.

I'm sorry...

Magic Moment

2007-07-27T15:53:00.000-07:00

I have decided to type this blog entry, while I’m on my flight to London. Think there is still another hour or so before we touch down on Heathrow provided if the weather is good enough.

Finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows about 5 hours before the flight. (This is partly due to “charm” of the book and partly due to the advice of Jiafang, so I don’t need to bring it with me to London. - Seems like I’m confounded.)

So after all the big ho-has, I guess the book did live up to its expectations. Or I should say, the last 100 pages or so of the book lived up to its expectations. Apparently, the first 300 pages was slightly boring, trying to fill up on the gap on what is going on after Dumbledore was killed. (Well, perhaps the term “killed” is not used appropriately. I guess those who read the book will know why). The “mood” of the book was melancholic, sad and hopeless as nothing seem to work out for Harry and the entire Order. In the middle, that’s where the REAL adventure started when Harry, Hermione and Ron embarked on their journey to destroy the Horcruxes. As for the ending, trying me best not to reveal too much here, well. … to me, it is justified. Just that a lot of explanations have got to be done as Dumbledore and Snape’s loyalty has created too many gaps in the entire story.

Sounds like a book critic here … Haha. I suppose we can all pick up something from the book. For example: we know people in Gryffindor are those who are courageous, brave, honorable and loyal. We read how much Harry trusted his friends (even if it is just based on his instincts!) and not to give up even when things are not happening to his favor. Sometimes, we really hope that magic exists. With magic, we can do things beyond our wildest imagination (even though there are still “scientific laws in magic”, according to what I read in Wikipedia!). What I see in this fictional magical world is that the relationship between people are much closer, bonds between friends are very strong. I guess it is partly because of the way which people grow up and the things that people do together. They don’t chat online via MSN! They don’t have smses. They communicate by writing letters (or maybe through fireplaces!), something which you will feel that it is more warmth, more real, closer to your heart. (This sounds a bit like the Chinese comprehension passages which we did to prepare of O’s last year) Perhaps this is what we lack in modern society eh? (Quoting from the GP compre passage) In such a fast paced world where people are so busy until they have hardly anytime to eat or sleep. Even hanging out with friends is a luxury! Reminds me of the last “class outing” in which only 7 people went. We hardly have anytime for ourselves, let alone to find time to hang out. It seems that Harry Potter is not only about magic, or the “good vs evil” theme, but also protraying other aspects which the “muggle” society lacks.

I can’t imagine how NJ would be like if it is like Hogwarts. HAHAHA! Imagine house points being deducted by Sharon Phua if girls get caught with low skirts or modified uniforms. Imagine if there is a hat which we wear and shouts “SOLARIS!”. Lol. Interesting…

Okay... I'm just being random here.

E for GP

2007-07-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

So i did get an E for GP. Not glamourous at all, even though the highest score was a C and im floating somewhere around the average. it seems that i got the lowest of all the lowest scores. CCDEF. all i need was an 'S' grade to complete "a flush of grades". i think u can pick anyone in NJ blindfolded with at least one subject getting a B or above. So this is really bad.

moving on to something else ... more positive. I'm leaving for london on wednesday morning! I'm suppose to look forward to it. but it seems that the CT results are like Dementors, perhaps worse than them. and i still have yet to prepare for my presentation at the sharing session. the reason? i'm totally distracted by that harry potter and the deathly hallows which i got it for free. well, not entirely free. i worked to earn it. anyway, i'm suppose to present with transparencies if i somehow manage to get to the final round. it's like.. WTH? we are living in 21st century and yet we are still using transparencies.

so i went to watch harry potter and the order of pheonix (yea, my life got slightly potty-ish lately) with some of the most unexpected people, well... perhaps not the most unexpected, since i've watched movie with the two of them before. the movie, like what the critics say, was too short and lacked the excitement and actions which was written and portrayed in the book. for example, one of the climax of the movie was harry kissing cho chang. but the movie hardly showed any development in the relationship at all. its like... blink! and they kissed. that's it.. not much of follow up until the part where she revealed the location of the room of wadever and "betrayed" the DA (though she got doped by snape with the ver(blah)-sium (forgot what that potion called). there wasn't much story about the order of pheonix itself either, apart from the start and the end. the death of sirius black came in a bit too fast, but nevertheless, the dueling scene at the department of mysteries was cool enough. not to mention the final part where dumbledore fought with voldemort, that was quite an eye-opener, though u have no idea what spells they were casting at each other. the movie instead of focussed on more of the friends of harry, with the introduction of luna lovegood, who was quite luna-tic. the most "random" person in the entire movie, who also happens to be the person giving emma watson a run for her money (according to the magazine). well, i think she's the kind of "dumb blonde" that gerard likes to call, but a run for the money? perhaps not. maybe Ben will think she is downright hot. but i do admit she looks pretty, though she's a bit too lunatic for her looks. another person introduced, well, not entirely new, but played a bigger role, is Ginny. You can't help to think that the ginny that you are seeing in the movie is going to be with harry in the 6th movie (and doing all those intimate stuff that you can imagine) kiss harry in the 7th movie. its like... EEW. but no choice, the current Ginny was picked years ago...

i reckon that the book itself is one of the best among the seven, even as im reading the seventh book. i guess it was mainly because of the return of voldemort which really changed the story, making it more mature, serious and slightly melancholic at times. i'm still reading the seventh book, so i hope the ending will change my impression of it. so far, the book has been QUITE boring, mainly because the setting is no longer at hogwarts and with only a few pages of excitement. thank goodness i didn't read straits times today as i've heard someone said that it was a spoiler. so do expect some potty-fans write to forum page and start scolding the editor.

but in the meanwhile, i shall continue to live in the magic moment, you just want it to last as long as it could be. right?

bitter taste of failure

2007-07-19T06:41:00.000-07:00

umm... so common test results are mostly out. sad to say, it was really bad. first time in my life that i failed so miserably. CCDF, think an E for GP perhaps?

sigh. feel quite hopeless though. it seems that we have to do things the hard way after all. like staying up to 2am to study, do practice, do tutorials (most probably don't know how to do one).

searching for a source of inspiration and motivation. after 2 years in IP, i seem to feel more tired than ever. studying is no longer interesting, it's like a chore.

CCDF(and an 'E' awaiting). i dont know how am i suppose to react. others say it is common to fail in common tests, while some are bloody good and getting A's.

Was looking at my tutee's maths paper today. surprisingly, i stumbled when i try to do some of the questions which he got wrong. HAHAHA. well, his tutor isn't doing that well in maths either. think i should give him some homework while i'm away in london.

so today's floorball match was great, though the guys lost 10-3, nevertheless, its the spirit, the motivation and the desire to win which we have found. as for the girls. it was a hard lesson for them. they were twice in the lead, but finally broke down during the third period when VJ scored 3 goals in the last period. sounds like some classic football match when a team is leading 1-0 all the way, only to lose at the final minute 1-2. EH... isnt that the great comeback of manchester united against bayern munich in 1999, champs league finals? though the girls pwned the VJ girls throughout the first two quarters, they failed to convert chances to goals. there were tonnes of one on one situations or times when the ball just crossed on the face of goal, but we failed to put the ball at the back of the net. life is just as cruel. when you dont seize the chance, you won't get another one, and at the end of the day, you lose. GG

oh well.. shall revise chem prac now.

reality check

2007-07-14T03:57:00.000-07:00

Forget about the expected results. those are the most unrealistic scores that i can never imagine myself getting. After a C for maths and D for chem, and most probably a U for econs... this is really reality check man.

After one week of enrichment, we finally find ourselves being thrown back into the dreadful, tormenting and stressful life of a student. Getting Cs and Ds is never what I expect, I mean... after getting As and Bs, the sentiments of Cs and Ds is never sweet. Even when i had only one week to revise, even when i can tell myself that i had attachment programme during the june hols, even when i have all the reason in the world to fail all my common tests, failing is never a good feeling. failing should not be the option. U just feel that you didn't do yourself justice by studying more when you know that you could have squeeze some time out here and there to revise that page of notes for another time. it's just not good enough. you know your potential is far greater than just Cs and Ds, but u just can't stop getting it.

I feel so embarrassed and ashame of myself when Mr Chee particularly said that the person whom he spent 2 hours of consultation with couldn't even do that trigo question which he went through. this is not a joke, it's not about looking at other people's girl, it's not looking and studying hard enough. I feel so bad. The worse thing is, Mr Chee and Ms Ng are swapping classes! I don't think i shall say it here, but i guess all of us can expect what will happen after the change. And now, I'm in Mr Teo's class, with the least 03ers, hope i can cope well over there. I think Mr chee wants to send me to a tutor which forces his students to do his work, just like Mr Teo.

Went back to school today and i regreted going for the sexuality workshop. I had the choice of going to ubin and cycle (since i had paid for it), went to EDB for the talk or stayed at home to sleep. I was thinking of a reason to stay during the workshop and i was wondering WHY i was there. I was informed last minute and that is bloody unfair to me! I know this is compulsory, but it doesn't make sense to let the me know like 12 hours before the actual event. I could have planned for alternatives to solve my enrichment (cycling @ ubin) problem. Mr Irwan said i might not even get back my $20 since i only notified him this morning. What am i forgoing? It's more than $20. I wanted to go to ubin for a mini-retreat and enjoy the scenery there,I missed OBS so much! talk about opportunity costs here leh. i walked up to mr loh and told him honestly that if he wasnt the teacher ic for this workshop, i would have just pon.

So the floorball nationals finally arrived and our guys team had already lost 3 matches. I guess, we just didn't train enough and we aren't experienced enough as well. we were like being ripped apart by other JC's teams. As the match secretary, i feel so hopeless, i felt that i could have gone on court to make things better for my power-line. on the bright side, we've managed to score the first goal of the season (after conceding 25). it was a power shot made from a position near the halfway line. The MJ girl who was the other match official was like,"wah, not bad leh, can score from that distance. actually, i think you guys improved a lot already, given that you are in the A div for the first year". well, consider that as consolation words, but the team will appreciate the kind intentions. but still, we are just not good enough...

looking back, i realised that all the CCAs that i had joined so far are never the achieving CCAs. i was in swimming and scouts when i was in pri school. swimming again in SJI. then badminton and floorball here in NJ. None of my CCAs were high achieving ones.

CTs are OVER!

2007-06-28T07:42:00.000-07:00

CT's are over, shall reward myself by writing a post here. haha.

Expected Results:
Bio - B
Chem - B
Maths - C
Econs - S
GP - C

So how do you feel if you go to a war unprepared?
how do you feel if you walk onto the badminton court without your raquet?
how do you feel you want to play floorball competition but not training for it for the past month?

well, simply speaking. u just feel sucky about it. u feel defeated, despair, disappointed.

sometimes, u can just forsee that you will be the loser. like failing your CT's, didn't get into exco, didnt get into the competition team for the year. but then you realise, its no one to blame. you created this mess yourself. who ask you to study for CT's only one week beforehand? who ask you to be in such bad relation with the current Exco and make urself such an asshole when u always be valid excuse for missing trainings? who ask you to apply for so many external programes such as STaR programme and get yourself locked in the lab from 830 to 6pm everyday and end up missing all the floorball trainings?

now i understand what knd of mess that i got myself into. my mom kept on bugging me to quit one of my CCAs (i.e. badminton, research, sapphires, floorball and handong's S cube). I am struggling between choosing loyalties and interest. (eh.. i just realised that one of the GP sample question was "there are no permanent loyalties, only permanent interests exist, DYA?". haha, what a coincidence!) my loyalties and interests lie in badminton, my interests lie in floorball, my loyalties lie in sapphires and Scube.

sometimes, i question myself,am i thinking too highly of myself? or am i just too engrossed with beefing up my portfolio with these commitments which might just be loyalties? are my interest really passion-driven interests or just selfish-driven interests?

anyway... shall think of something else for the time being coz its CELEBRATION TIME!!! (i was looking forward to floorball. but....)

Downloaded many songs recently, don't know why. always get distracted when doing work and often go online to dl songs instead. but i download nice songs of course! downloaded some old songs, like S.H.E's 美丽新世界. WOW! that's going to be a classic in a few years to come. when that song hit the charts 6 years ago, the three of them are still 'nobody' in the Asia music industry and i just started listening to chinese songs during my sec one year. but now, they are like one of the strongest groups around with likes of Mayday and F.I.R, even 5566 have faded out. though the song is a bit old, but i like it's catchy tune and the lyrics: simple, but yet bring out the positive attitude that we should have in life. Just bought their most recent album, "play", realised that they really have changed. the songs that they record are so unlike the songs they sang when they first entered the industry. you might be wondering why i bought their album when i can just download it off from the net. well, i believe that good singers deserve that hole i am burning in my pocket.i downloaded that old song because i couldnt find that song in my com. i used to have the music file. but don't know where it went to already.

wah... that's a long post. hope some people will read it and find it meaningful. much unlike the maths & girl post. haha

OH. At hindsight, i think, i shouldn't have looked at the girl, should have focussed more with maths consultation. that's why im going to get a C.

umm, think i should change blog skin. i have been using this skn for the past 2 years!

tick tock

2007-06-23T10:52:00.000-07:00

tick tock,
tick tock,
tick tock,
30 hours and counting,
counting down to my doom...
counting down to liberation...
counting down to the agony that fills me when i see my results...

its 2am and im still studying GP.
yea, GP.
i'm not even confident of writing one full essay.
i'm waiting for a miracle to occur
studying GP is purely for my emotional security.

Bio, Econs, Chem and Maths
1 round of revision,
hardly done any of the exercise...
hardly went through any of my past tutorials and quizes...

i think i'm scratching my head too often,
thinking about too many things,
hair is falling of from my head at an astounding rate!!!
i need beijing 101 man. haha
think i'm going to be bald before i reach 30

doubt anyone would see this anyway.

tick tock,
tick tock,
tick tock,

2nd post!

2007-06-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

i shall make june hols sounds like june hols by posting again!

the quote of the day:"eh, do your maths, don't look at other people's girl!"

and that came from Mr Da-miAn Chee (coz A is for Angel~). he said that when he caught me looking at a couple who was walking pass our table when i had a maths consultation with him. damn, he is an observant guy. Even when he was marking my question with his head facing the table, he can still see where my eyes are looking at! it gives you this feeling like "damn, he spotted me!". haha. actually, he spotted me twice. a while before that, he spotted me looking at a group of hwa chong girls who were sitting the table adjacent to ours. not that i was really attracted, but i THINK (before my memory fails me), one of the girl happens to take 852 in the morning. oh wells, but mr chee is really observant, or maybe just that i'm too obvious.

oh btw, ms sarah wong is getting married today! didn't know that until mr chee told me just now. my floorball teacher ic wedding also dont know... haiyoh. i dont she will see this, but i wish her blissful marriage, and a "happily-ever-after"! (inspired by shrek 3's "its a happily ever after after all")

talking about human behaviour, observing people at KAP can be real funny at times. a moment ago, a group of girls may be gossiping about scandals happening among their social circles, then a moment later, they will be deep in concentration about their differentiation assignments. then u see couples chatting, flirting etc. and couldnt even finish reading one page of notes in 20 mins. and you call that "revising with friends".

i guess i was one of the few lonely soul sitting at kap today, so i was a bit bored and tired after doing like 4 hours of maths holiday revision package and realise that i couldnt even "complete the sqaure" properly. and then mr chee said, "aiyoh, so you sit here since 10am this morning and couldnt even complete the square" yea, that really sucks. but its better than not completing the square properly during the exams.

another thing happened in KAP today. I LOST MY HANDPHONE POUCH (which i bought like 2 weeks ago). i need a heart transplant man, coz my heart broke into a million pieces. (wow, i can feel the chilly wind too)

umm. i wanted to blog more, but i guess i shall stop here and start on my bio revision. and yes,its 11pm ALREADY. and i'm going to start NOW.

post term 2

2007-06-06T06:55:00.000-07:00

Time to clear up the spider webs and cockroach eggs here…

Throughout this term 2, many (random) thoughts came across my mind, but I didn’t really have the time to pen them down. Life is so busy, you don’t even have the time to stop and take a breather. I had never felt so proud when I gave myself a day off during a few of the weekends. Wonder if this is really the life that I want. (okay.. I’m getting a bit emo here. But that’s true)

Leadership Symposium

This event started of by giving the whole school an impression that this is some elitist thingy when we had to call individuals to come for the symposium (implying that we chose them according to merits). To a certain extent, it is somewhat elitist, but as Gerard pointed out, if we open to the whole school to sign up, I guess some jokers will sign up for fun and spoil the whole thing, so better to be safe than sorry. What I learnt from LS is that the world outside is not an easy world to live in. Everything we do, we must go through this bureaucratic process, which always end up having our initial ideas being changed to something very different. When I say bureaucratic, it can be VERY troublesome. There were complaints from the participants which I think it was quite reasonable and I guess we have to work a lot harder next year. (Well at least it doesn’t screw up in my year). For the past few days, I have been receiving mails from all the sapphires scholars saying that they want to be in next year’s LS org comm. Gosh, do you guys really have to mail EVERY SINGLE PERSON and let the whole world know that you are interested? It’s good to see initiative, but I guess that is a little bit overboard here…

Badminton nationals

DAMN! We put up such a good fight this year and we didn’t get through because we had a difficult pick. Against ACJC and TJC leh… on paper, its really hard to win them. But our guys really fought hard and walked out of the hall as men of courage and determination. Though Albert didn’t win the crucial games, I think he is still one of the greatest guys around; he just got to shake off the “court”-fright. Moving on the EXCO elections, the results are finally out. Not surprisingly, I didn’t get into EXCO. Somehow, I feel that the current EXCO don’t really like me at all, partly because of the lack of full commitment and partly because my status as a sapphires. I know they want the best of the best to serve in the EXCO… I guess I’m just not good enough. Though I wasn’t entirely disappointed, but I felt a little bit uneasy after then announcement of the result. Guess I just got to stomach it somehow.

Talking about sapphires… I think the status as sapphires is really giving a lot of pressure from all directions. People around you tend to see you differently if you are a sapphire; somehow they think that you are one of those who get the better treatment and composing the small group of people which makes this society more elitist than ever. I don’t know why people have such predisposition. DUDE! We are still humans (homo-sapiens to be exact); we are still walking on two legs and going to the same school. So spare me and the rest, treat us like NORMAL PEOPLE.

SISC

How I missed SISC! I miss all the friends that I’ve made during this one week event. Hard to imagine, science is something which transcends across geo-political boundaries, cultural differences and language barriers. Imagine some Jap guy (like Atsushi Ohno) talking to freako Zachary from Florida. Some of the research projects out there are really good and these young people out there looks promising to become potential talents in the research field. It’s really hard to say goodbye after meeting so many cool people, especially those from Mahidol, Cantebury, Minjok and Fort Myers. Not only their education systems are different, but the school and research culture are so diverse. Those guys who came from china, they treated this whole competition so heavily, as if they are carrying the hopes of their people. On the other hand, we have peeps from UK and US, who just heck about it and enjoy their time here! But nevertheless, all these people are freaking good, especially those guys from Israel and Russia, really smart and funky at times. SISC really taught me that there is a much bigger world out there, waiting for us to explore and discover, I just can’t wait for LIYSF to come and put myself into the shoes of an overseas participant.

On another note, I think Ern Sheong, Sasha and Yisong should have won at least a distinction in their SISC challenge!!!! It’s so unfair. Not that the champion school is particularly good, just that they have some well rehearsed speeches and perhaps some nice images. They hardly substantiated their points, while we went around the world just to explain one “heaty” problem…

Aristal

-So called the finale to our SISC (as Joel mentioned on stage)- I think Aristal 2007 was totally amazing, showing how talented our dance groups are. Even though some of them didn’t get their GOW (with special mention), they got my GOW (with lots of special mention) haha. I guess the biggest controversy was why MD senior section only got a bronze. Perhaps their dance was too “contemp” as I heard from somebody in the crowd. Nevertheless, after watching their dance for like 5,6 times, I can tell all the pain and conflict that they are trying to express. Another talking point was the “striping” part of the IP contemporary dance. Well… in the name of art, I shall not use the word “striping”. Call it “release” maybe? After watching that dance for like n amount of times, its quite easy to spot certain parts where they made the mistakes. But hey! Not every day is a sunny day, u just got to accept the imperfections sometimes. It was still a very well choreographed dance (whether the judges liked it or not). Then the YFC head down to KAP for a midnight meeting. Now that was really a midnight meeting! It ended at twelve thirty! And that is the time where there are no more public buses, no more MRTs, but only with Taxis that charge 50% more. With 4 people taking one taxi, the fare was $26.75. That is the most expensive taxi ride I ever took!

Peer tutoring!

This is the first time I really consider myself a good, loving and caring senior. So im tutoring this little guy Weiquan from 07IP04. This little guy is nothing else but cool, coz he has a PDA phone, can run long-D, hang out with friends and can draw pretty good! okay.. shall not mention his maths grades here, but he is just like one typical IP guy who is enjoying his IP life I suppose. Perhaps I shall be the “bad guy” and destroy his life by slave driving him to do his maths hw and revision. (when im not even revising for my maths CTs) Hope I can really inspire/motivate/drive him to at least do something with his maths grades. I mean… maths is the easiest subject to get A (though im no where near it), all you need to do is mug the entire TYS. Right reg?

IBN attachment

I guess im regretting right now. I should have gone for the TLL programme. I just want to fulfill my dream of working in IBN, after they kicked me out 2 years ago. Now I realize that my dream… turns out to be a nightmare. No allowance and have to work from 830 to 6 everyday, just like any other adults in the lab. And guess what? When I walked into the labs at 845 in the morning, not even half of the admin staff are there! And there are more people in the pantry than people in the office doing their work! And they are freaking getting paid!?!?!? Perhaps I should have stayed in IMRE…

Altruistic Surrender

Umm.. this idea of altruistic surrender is some theory proposed by Sigmund Freud (my PW project! YAY?!), saying that a particular individual feels so lonely that he needs to “give himself up” to the people around him to interact. i.e. surrendering himself for a greater benefit. Yea, I think I’m one of those around having this problem. I got to watch pirates of the Caribbean alone and watch shrek with Yisong and some unfamiliar RI guys whom yisong met during SISC. I mean… this is weird! Totally weird. I guess I need to do something to spice life up a bit. But then and again, where to find the time? I surrender myself to sapphires, badminton, research attachment, floorball, handong’s S-cube…. This is driving me nuts!!!! I guess Handong was right, I’m doing some things which I don’t like or enjoy. I don’t find the meaning in doing some of the things! I guess I really need to find a direction in life. yea, like what Teo Ho Pin said, got to find a passion to go after it. Perhaps research isn’t my cup of tea.

A “cup of tea” is all I want… where to find it?

yet another short post...

2007-04-29T08:11:00.000-07:00

sometimes, u just wish that time can stand still and you can do wadever you want. people often say, life is short, so cherish all the good times you have. well, i say, JC life is even shorter, don't cherish it only, put your life as your stake for four A's, two distinctions, and a brilliant, colourful, superb, hyper, uber cool portfolio.

guess that i have to keep this short again, even though i have like SOOOOOO many things to blog about.

the past week didnt went well at all. in short, its a bad week. i think daniel powter should come up with a song 'bad week', since 'bad day' is just too little, or call it a sequel to the song 'bad day' (coz a bad week is a summation of bad dayS).

think the only good thing to blog about is the qualification to the final round in the UN-ASEAN essay writing competition and MANCHESTER UNITED GOING TO WIN THE PREMIERSHIP!!! muahahahahaha. guess those chelsea fans (i.e. yuntian and all those who think michael ballack is so darn hot when he is so darn NOT) are sobbing their ass off right now. muahahahahahaha. a word of advice for mourinho, "shut up and let the feet do the talking".

im off now for mugging chem. still counting the opportunity cost for watching the dance floor finals as i have two quizes, 3 tutorials and a comprehension undone...

random

2007-04-24T06:15:00.000-07:00

umm. not very emo today. no urge ('incentive or willingness' in economics term) to blog

LKY interview was rather good. it was the same panel that interviewed me for MOE OSAP! they remembered me as well! haha. so i guess i was "grilled" enough last time and i'm spared this time.

oh man... busy 'fixtures' coming up. badminton nationals, CA tests, VA assessments, Bio SPA. its a bit like those English Premier League clubs that are involved in 4 cup competitions. think i might just screw up for a few tests...

the walls have ears...

2007-04-23T07:38:00.002-07:00

so there is this saying... "the walls have ears"

the virtual world have eyes ... gotta be more careful when i speak next time.

i got so many things that i want to blog, so many thoughts, emotions, opinions to share, but i guess i have to bottle them up until i find a better avenue to release them.

of course time is also a constraint in what i want to say!

tmr is my interview for LKY award. rather nervous....

april...

2007-04-10T04:39:00.000-07:00

had a weird dream ytd night... dreamt that i was kissing a girl. okay.. this sounds wrong, like which girl will be in the wrong state of mind to kiss me. but dreams, are dreams, not reality. it was SO real, perhaps surreal, that i overslept. reminds me of this love song, Reality by Richard Sanderson.

met you by surprise, i didnt realise
that my life will change forever
saw you standing there, i didnt know i cared
there is something special in the air

dreams are my reality, the only kind of real fantasy,
illusions are a common thing
i try to live in dreams
it seems that if it is meant to be
dreams are my reality, a different kind of reality
i'll dream of loving in the night
and loving seems alright
although it's only a fantasy

talking about kissing... umm... noticed that there are some (obvious) couples hanging around, doing what couples are supposed to do. sometimes, it can be touching at times to see people caring for each other, those little words and little actions which carries a litte message of love perhaps? (really depends on how u define couples) it do stir some envy among those single people, but that doesnt mean we should be desperate. no, i'm not.

phantom of the opera was indeed a great production. though im alrd a fan of it before the musical even arrived, the feeling of watching the play itself is totally amazing. the props are really good, and i guess the organisation of the props is really sophisticated due to the type of scenes that it has to show. another thing that makes phantom of the opera such a great production is its storyline. it has a touching storyline where the phantom learned that christine lied to him to save raul, though he gave everything she has as her mentor for singing. There was this part where it really sparked me to think... when raul ask phantom to be compassionate and free christine, then phantom screamed back at him, saying that the world show no compassion to him.

i guess he is right... how many times in our lives do we look down on those who are 'abnormal' when we know we shouldn't be doing so? i was watching After hours on monday night, and there was this part about April's (Joanne Peh) hope of rekindling a relationship with her ex-boyfriend. When she really had the chance to see him, she realised that he met an accident and became a cripple. at that point of time, she just couldn't hide that disappointment she has in her eyes, and felt really guilty after that. i guess it really takes some courage to overcome this kind of mental barriers.

talking about compassion... i just realised our school can be quite a cruel place to be in. what happened last week was that i only realised that i need to hand up some IBN form to mr chan by 1pm on thursday morning. i was really lucky that jiayi had an extra copy of the forms, so he kindly gave his extra one to me. during lunch, i rushed down to the bytes to type out some personal statement required for the IBN forms. when it was my turn to print, the printer broke down with a piece of paper jammed inside! so i called mr chan and he asked me to go sigma lab to print... and it is free to print there as well! just when i thought my salvation arrived, the devil made his entrance. i walked into the sigma labs and KINDLY (really kind.. a bit like a beggar) asked the lady lab tech whether i can borrow her printer and print my personal statement. i dont know what went across her mind, but she implicitly rejected me by saying that i should have completed the forms earlier given that i was notified in advance. she was so resolute that i doubt that the most concentrated acid in the lab can melt her down... so i had no choice but to find alternatives. there was this point of time where i thought that i should go down on my knees to beg her, but on second thought, i dont think i will have the guts to walk out of the labs to face the world as i lost my dignity to just some asshole. i called mr chan again and he said i had the RIGHTS to print at the lab. so i walked back in and KINDLY (yes.. really kind like: "sorry to disturb you again, but mr chan asked me to print it here, would u mind helping me?") asked her for her assistance. and this time, i went through another door and saw that she was playing SOLITAIRE!!!! COULD YOU BELIEVE IT?! our school pay this asshole money to sit in the sigma labs, one person enjoying the air con while listening to music and playing solitaire?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? OMG, my dear mrs C***g, u just wasted another $2000 in hiring this kind of people? and guess what? when i told her mr chan asked me to print there.. she didnt believe me, totally doubted my honesty and called back to mr chan and asked "nick, u let him print arh? .... but he didnt do the forms when he is supposed to do so and u want to help him?" @$(!*@&#(!@$^ she was like.. stepping on me, not realising how dire the situation was (it was like 1:30pm)? but in the end, mr chan convinced her and she let me used the printer.. and i even THANKED her on my way out. i was talking to charleen that night and she said that i was supposed to be ANGRY!!!! and i was right in keeping my dignity.

i dont know how many of you will read this (if u read this entry.. pls post some comments). this is not meant to derograte our school. just that some people are such an asshole.

reflecting on the past few months... damn, time passed really fast, it is alrd the 5th week of term 2! so much has happened in this few months. yea.. one thing to mention, i wrote like.. 5 personal statements for the past 3 months for applications for many stuff. again, i would like to talk about orientation... it was truly an unforgetable journey with this batch of J1s and i made many new friends (some not even knowing their names!! haha) in the mainstream cohort. though it really pains me to hear mainstream people talking about how bad IP is.

joined floorball during feb and starting to like the game. not that im not committed to badminton or i hate badminton now, but i just feel that floorball makes me feel more at home. less politics, more about friendship and bonding, something which badminton really lacks. i joined floorball because i want to be a TEAM player, which badminton cannot give me. to a certain extent, badminton is an individual or paired sport, coz on the court, u are physically (not mentally) alone, unless u are playing doubles.

GP has become a "hate-able" subject without ms. jasmine seah. the whole class missed her!!! everyone is complaining about ms. XXX's ineffective and sardonic (not sure whether this word was used) style of teaching. ms. seah... please come back to teach us!!!! moving on to something happier.. MR HEAH IS OUR GP TEACHER!!!! (applause please..) damn! he is such a cool and funny guy and really penetrating and evaluative with his comments on our work, he is ranked on the same level as jasmine seah okay!

I'm so happy that i go through MOE-OSAP and im going to london in july to represent singapore in a science conference, not to mention that there will be visits to cambridge, oxford, warwick, bristol and canteburry! though i applied for the MIT (massachusetts institute of technology), justin is the lucky guy who got it. CONGRATS DUDE!

I guess this is good enough for an update eh... back to my no-life now...

bad day...

2007-03-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

first day of term two... it is a TOTALLY SAD AND DEPRESSING today...

in order of the events that occured to me today, let me tell u why today is a bad and depressing day...

1) i woke up with 2 pimples after a few consecutive late nights on MSN (haha!)
2) my bus 74 broke down in the middle of lornie road and i had to wait for 20 mins for another bus
3) i walked into school today and saw a "sea of grey", NJ became quite melancholic...
4) i received my timetable... and it kind of sucks, only got one free period
5) i realised that Jasmine Seah, my GP teacher, is not teaching me GP anymore. all inspiration and motivation for GP is lost, sucked into the dark abyss...
6) i realised that Ms Aw is still my chem teacher, and as usual, she was very niao...
7) i got 16/25 for bio test. khoo sounded like she was very lenient like that. Ms Feng kind of knew EVERYTHING when it comes to marking, but kind of fall short when it comes to tutorials...
8) i got 20/30 for maths test... short of 1 point to get A. and i didnt get method marks to substituting the correct stuff. WTH?!
9) went to down to canteen and the cai fan stall looked to be "ransacked" by those J1s who got a free period before my lunch!
10) Clara Lee is not my econs teacher. got transferred to Sarah Wong's class, which is freakin S-L-O-W... like we are waaaaaaaaaayyyy ahead of time.
11) had quite a torturous PT during badminton which leaves me VERY tired now.
12) forgot to give someone the birthday present (how forgetful of me...)

okay.. that pretty much sums up my depressing day of term 2.

one word

sad.

second holiday post...

2007-03-17T08:36:00.000-07:00

so its march hols, perhaps im a bit more emo and stuff, so i should dedicate more time to this blog.

IP-mainstream divide has been quite an interesting topic lately. its really weird when u have friends in the mainstream, but yet the IPs in general dont like the mainstream, while the mainstream dont like the IPs. okay.. this is not some propaganda speech.

so mainstreams thinks that we are the aliens in NJC, using more money, using more space, "wasting resources", but most importantly, they think we are an arrogant bunch who dont deserve so much attention from the school. the existence of this programme (not students)just impedes the overall development of the school.

on the other hand, IP thinks, we should be special, or else why should we be called IP students? to a certain extent, we have been in an accelerated programme for the past two years and now we have to slow down to fit and move along with the mainstream.

and from the college admin's point of view. they are the idealist. what they hope is for both communities to gel and develop together. but like what one of my mainstream friends said "we always fall short from our social goals". personally, i think the efforts of the college admin is really futile or not THAT effective. like putting IPs and mainstream classes together for lectures or PE. for lectures, there is no time for any "interaction" of any sort. for PE, its sad to say, the IP people are still playing within their own community (when it is a free period of course).

being an IP3 OGL is kind of the middle man. i mean, when u know both the mainstream and IP well, it really puts u in a difficult position. on the personal level, we can all be friends, but on the higher (ideological) level, it is another story. its like the situation in middle east now.about 5 years ago, it is a common thing to see inter-racial friendships between Shi'tes and Sunnis (just tribe names of middle east), but now, they are like fighting because of some friction and ideological differences.

i do agree on the point that we are being too idealistic at times, ultimately, IPs and mainstream are two communities. but i think there should at least be an understanding or a "entente cordiale" of some sort between two communities. after all, we are still under one roof, we should be friendly to each other in some way. no point scrutinizing each other for two years.

really want to do something about this... but oh wells, im just a small little fry in this community and my words dont carry as much weight. perhaps i should voice this out at the principal dialogue session next time. for these two years, im kind of acting like the "opposition" of the college admin. just dont understand what these guys sitting at G.O doing everyday. these kind of problem will really kick their ass if they dont come up with a solution quick.

term 1

2007-03-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

So the (long awaited) March hols has finally arrived. Personally, this is not much of hols... a typical NJCian will get him or herself into a lot of "shit" (i.e. work) like weeks before hols start, so i guess this is more of a working holiday.

warning: towards the end of this post are really sensitive topics which some of you ppl find it disturbing. i dont mind u guys posting about your views, but please have some courtesy and dont start flaming...

Honesty...

anyway... to kick off this looooooooooooooong post, i shall start by complimenting this guy call Jiasheng (yes.. that guy at the tag board). So he was the good samaritan who biked all the way from his house to return me my wallet. The funny thing was what happened at the door... first i was completely shocked that honestly still exist on EARTH. I say this because i lost my handphone before and even when it took me less than 5 mins to realise it, it was gone by the time i went back to the bus stop where i dropped it. So i stood at the door, rather dumbfounded, and i was talking to him in chinese while he was talking to me in english. Somehow, i got this perception that it would be much easier to communicate with a HC guy in chinese, but only to realise that his english is quite pro when i read his blog. So all i said was "thank you" and nothing else. Well... u may say that such an ungrateful person, but seriously speaking.. u just cant believe that honesty still exist in this (to a certain extent, selfish) society.

Orientation 1 &2

so orientation 1 still rocks because it is orientation one and everyone was enthu. orientation 2... sadly speaking was more of a failure than a success. Firstly, people arent THAT enthu, because not all of the second intakers really wanted to be here. Secondly, it "seems" that second intakers are nerds that just didnt make it to HC or RJ (and they were busy going back to their 1st 3 month JC to file for appeals). lastly... Dance night was really... sad. there were only like 200+ ppl at parade square?! and it looked SO empty that first intakers go down for the party just to "fill in the blanks". BUT... nevertheless... dance party was some avenue for some of us to wind down and go crazy before the road run. For me, i was like... waiting for the Dj to play mass dance, after that, i'll just cross my hands and walk around the place. Mass dance was really fun... u just couldnt stop dancing it. perhaps i was from mass dance comm, so im kind of inclined to support mass dance like mad. so my second mass dance of the night was with christin, my partner for the demo during the mass dance sessions in O1. it was really like time traveling back in time with her to O1, when we did funny faces to each other. her "dao"-look for the public affairs is damn funny... and she kind of enjoy doing it all the time. LOL.

on another note... i think it is quite true that in the most noisy environments, you tend to find your quieter self deep within you. okay.. not that im emo. but as i was walking around the parade square and observing some people, some form of self-reflection dashed through my mind, like my OGLing days, the cool people that i met in orientation one, purpose of studying my ass out of me and etc.

07S12

My OG. U GUYS ROCK!!! these guys are really cool and treat their OGLs real good. Wilson and Paul got posted out!!!! so unfair!!!! life being a scholar isnt that easy after all...

07S18

Not my OG, was christin's OG and her junior class. Wasnt really affiliated with them at the start, but somehow, i have this affinity with them and see them everywhere?! Let me clarify... im not stalking them. so "affinity" is the word. But this class is somewhat more fun that my OG. (sorry S12...) i dont really know the whole class, but people like Kian Hwee, Allyssa, Ai Wei, Jiehui, Jinying, Cherlyn, Felix, Wai Kit, "Polar" and Marcus are really fun and enthu people. it is really sad that Kian Hwee, Jiehui, Cherlyn and Polar got posted out. their absense is sure felt on the first day after they got posted out. Really happy that Wai Kit and Ai Wei managed to stay even though they were 5 pointers. if they got posted out... NJ like will be less fun.

Talking about Ai Wei... heard she stayed because of her A1 for English. now that is totally IMBA. A1 for english... i dont even dare to dream of it sia. give me a lot of pressure when i talk to her, like i must make sure that my grammar and expressions are correct. HAHA

Somehow.. i got an impact in their lives as well, though i wasnt really their OGL. Jiehui was telling me i should be honoured that she missed me when she was in ACJC! damn honoured sia! heard she cannot speak chinese in AC... HAHA, sad for her la...

IP.... Do i deserve NJ?

looking at S18's plight (with half of the class posted out), sparks a question in me: Do i deserve to be in NJ? i mean.. it took Ai Wei an A1 for english to stay in NJ, i seriously dont think that i can even get a B3 in O levs. For the past year, i got two A's for LA because of tyco-ness (69.5 and 69.7). Is my A equivalent to hers? I doubt so. What's more... she got her A from writing compos and doing compres. and what i did was reading off from the book for the crucible play and coming up with an ad that took much less effort that studying for a paper.

perhaps it is time for me to salvage myself and start working on my GP.

GP... Jasmine Seah, the Lara Croft of NJC

talking about GP, i really have to thank God for giving me and my GP class Jasmine Seah for GP. I think she is damn cool (well.. u cant compare her with jared...) and rocks totally. They way she teaches is rather free-styled, and encourage more discussions among us during GP. Her eccentric character is really the solution to monday blues (coz GP is the first period of the week for me) and the solution to the post-lunch syndrome on tuesdays.

umm.. dont know whether i should say this.. but Jem thinks she is kind of hot & cool.

House Affliate... sad...

Inspired after orientation 1, i decided to run for the house affliate position in class, not knowing that to be house affliate, u have got to be a class CT. Sad to say, my term in office lasted for not more than 3 months.

Okay.. i shall be honest about my feelings here. When i first heard that im going to get "kicked" out of the position, i was really sad. Sasha, HAT and Orientation one really gave me a lot of inspiration to serve for the house (only the house). No doubt the most of the inspiration came from Sasha, the house capt who is willing to die for the house (unlike Shaun Tan). I think it really hits onto people when they see a leader putting his/her life for the welfare for a group of people, and this is what i truly see as commitment and service, along with passion as well. When a leader has this level of commitment, his or her "subordinates" will be more than willing to die for her as well, even when it takes so much effort to do it. For example, when she asked for more rehearsals on the informal walk-in, people really complied and followed without questioning.

however, to be gracious, i somehow felt that i had to step down my post. firstly, i dont want to run against the wilbert and doris for the position as CT Rep as they got their positions with unanimous votes. secondly, even if i ran against them, i wont get the CT position as my class will NEVER put people like me in that position after knowing me. so what can i say? step down la, unless i want to be seen as some ass who just wants to cling onto power.

but when mr tan presented his reason why i should step down, deep down inside me, i was really angry (not angry of him... just that im angry). he said i should step down because i got a leadership position as a maths rep! Firstly, i dont see ANY leadership when it comes to being a maths rep. All i need to do was collect worksheets and chase after people for money, do u call that leadership? if i were to tell scholarship selection panel that being a maths rep makes me a leader, i think i'll kiss ANY scholarship goodbye. Secondly, i didnt run for the position of maths rep. i got the position because of luck (bad luck in this case). If people thought that i kept the position for maths rep bcause i want to extra and hiong by running for two post, then i think they misunderstood me. If i had the choice between the two positions, i will DEFINITELY drop my position as maths rep lor. but it seems to be too late...

PR or fighting for a cause?

so when a guy argues with a girl, guys are supposed to "take the blow" and be gracious to the girl. that is the Law of PR found in PR101. i dont really get that, but somehow, i was told and reprimanded to some extent for not obeying this law.

well... i dont exactly see the reason why. if logic is on your side, why cant i fight for it?

and so i went to ask around... and i got this answer: If the girl dont agree, she just dont.

being stubborn or peristent?

A lot of thing happened in this term and it seems that term 2 will be more and more work for us. SIGH... I'm tired.

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New Year Resolution

2007-02-17T16:59:00.000-08:00

So, I decided to blog on the first day of the lunar year of pig. First of all, want to wish u guys who are reading this a happy chinese new year and a great "mugging" year ahead.

I don't know what to say for what happpened in the past two months. Time really flies, some of us are still having this post-orientation syndrome at the start of february, as though orientation ended only a day ago. Orientation was like a dream, you just don't want it to end. Sadly, dreams are always shattered by the cruelty of reality.

Sometimes, I really don't understand what is SO good about the lecture-tutorial system. For some subjects, the lectures are ahead of the tutorials while some are on par with each other. In particular for chem, the lectures are freakin slow, we are studying things for the third time! For some of us, perhaps it is time for some revision of the past work that we had done, but the problem is, we are treated like a bunch of gwun-dos walking into the LT knowing nothing at all and expected to be "fascinated" by the new stuff that we are going to learn. The IP programme is to accelerate us in learning by learning some A levels stuff in the past two years, but now, we are being deccelerated! What's the point of forcing us to study so much high level stuff, when we are going to be go back to square one when we enter IP3? There is nothing that makes us special apart from the fact that we only have one subject in our O levels cert and they have 9 or 10.

Talking about IP, it seems to me that the IP-mainstream divide is getting worse and the college administration and the council is doing nothing much about it. To rub salt onto the wound, MOE decided to ban all IP1,2s from participating in competition together with the mainstream people in A division competition. In my opinion, the best way to salvage this situation is to have more house activities, but I think houses are not active enough, mainly because they take quite some time to plan every NE-related activity, so they are really busy. But then again, what are house affliates for? Elected house affliates are like the "reinforcements" of HAT, an extra branch below the HAT, they can be "mobilised" anytime to help the house to do stuff, so wouldn't this reduce the burden of HAT to plan more activities?

HK trip

2007-01-24T01:55:00.000-08:00

so, its the third week of orientation and i happen to have a few minutes of extra time to type this post. for the past week, i have been part of the mugging phenomenon of NJC. apparently, J2s and teachers say we (J1s) need to get a life, so i'm trying to get a life while typing this post out.

basically, this is about my HK trip, which happens to be about one month ago. this is what i call "time lag". same as the one that we learn in macroeconomics, but just need to change here and there a little bit, or so call the "application" section in the essays we write.

so after a 4 day trip to tokyo, it was a 5 hours journey back to HK with my parents and my 3rd aunt and uncle. (and yes again on business class)

The trip back to HK was indeed a fruitful one and could be summarized into 3 words: shopping, eating and reunion. i was so happy that i decided to extent my stay from leaving on the 21st to 25th dec. if not for OGL camp on 26th to 28th dec, i would have stayed longer.

Shopping!
you can shop anywhere in HK, but the most important thing is to know to shop at where to get the cheapest price. so the first "mission" was to head to this street at mongkok known as the "sports shoe street" or "波鞋街". there are about 40 shops selling sports shoe and apparels of brands such as Nike, Adidas, Reebok and LeCoqSportiff. The price is really dirt cheap down there due to intensive competition of sales between these shops. So its really important to walk down the street on both sides to check the price you like. For people like me, who are very particular in what i want, it took me two days to clear 75% of the street before i gave up in checking the prices and get the shoe i want. talking about checking prices, its important that shoppers keep these prices in your memories and not to note it down on paper, this is because the shop owners are afraid that you are a spy of another shop to check prices and reduce prices of their own shoes accordingly. that is how intensive competition are when u are in the country with the most free market system, haha!

at the end of the two weeks stay, i bought 2 shirts, 2 shoes (both are nike sneakers) and my new badminton bag. oh... and the price of the two shoes are about S$80 - dirt CHEAP for real stuff!

there are many other times where i went shopping but i shall not include them here, shan't make you guys jealous...

Eating!
there are lots of good food that i ate in HK, ranging from fast food to high class one. Cafe de Coral and Fairwood are the best and most popular fast food restaurants around and they are so fast that they can prepare one PROPER meal ( XXXX rice + drink + soup + appetizer dish) as fast as producing a value meal at macs, and not to mention that the food is hot and delicious. This is very important especially if it was winter in HK back then and nothing comes better than a good cup of milk tea and a hot plate of charsiew rice.

i also ate other specialty dishes from HK such as roast goose and roast pigeons. these two dishes are not available in Singapore and even if you can find one, most probably it was hand carried back from HK to the stall, which means it will be very EX.

moving on to the high class one. dishes include, sharks fin soup, lobster, fried oyster, crab meat soup, grilled canadian beef steak (which my aunt hand carried it back fron calgary) just to name a few. the reason why there are so much good food is because of all the family reunions. so its important to really have a formal meal to sit down together and chit chat a bit.

Reunion
This is the most important thing that made this trip a really fruitful and memorable one. 2006 was really the year where most of my direct relatives from both paternal and maternal are back in HK. Only one of my cousins from the paternal side didnt went back to HK and two from maternal side who actually went back to HK during Nov. my fav cousin, andrew gave everybody a surprise after "MIA-ing" for 6 years as he had to focus on his studies while working a part time job! he brought back a piece of good news that is he will be signing a permanent contract this year and he will be getting official holidays where he gets to fly back to HK or singapore for reunion with our relatives!

Andrew

a little bit more about andrew. andrew is about 15 years older than me, but 6 years back, there is no such thing as a generation gap between us. he loved to make little games and tamiya cars and play with me as well and he was so sad when he saw me changed so much in the past 6 years - i evolved from a little kid running around the place. he made the biggest mistake during his secondary school years in HK and dropped school. after some time, he decided to migrate to australia and start afresh. he had many difficult times picking up again and had to work several jobs at a time just to pay his school fees. there is this thing that i admire him the most - determination and the fighting spirit. my aunt's family is actually quite rich, but my cousin opted not to reveal his financial difficulties to his parents and did all these work under their nose hoping for his parents not to worry about him! when he realised his mistake, he picked himself up and went to many years of university and got 3 bachelors degrees (computing, accounts and business i think). he knew that he would lose out to other graduates who are fresh in the pool of talents hence he worked really hard for to get these 3 degrees and scored several high distinctions in his modules as well. His determination really set a benchmark for me as well as for his peers.

another thing i like about him is that he is a truthful and honest friend. when i ask him some really profound things (sometimes about the family), he really take time out to share with me what he knows and at the same time sensible enough to remind me not to mention some things he shared with me in front of other family members as it is rather sensitive. Given that i'm the youngest member in my maternal family, what he shared with me really made me understand the relations within the family much better and know the stories behind some of my other cousins as well.

Venus, Dorothy and Wilson
These three good friends are my kindergarden-mates when i was in Yiu Chung International and we still stay in touch even after 10+ years of separation as many of the original class migrated overseas after graduating from kindergarden. i'm so happy to see them again after a reunion we had two years ago (the year before i came into IP) and to see them growing more mature in their looks and their thoughts as well. Venus was still Venus, a little brainy girl, but still taller than NSTs. Wilson and Dorothy are just like Winnie the Pooh and little Piglet. Wilson is just like a godzilla of my height while dorothy was still dwarf-ish with the little,pinkish oval face. however, their personalities are a world apart. Wilson continued to be as vulgar and blunt in his talking while his English remained as poor as ever (about thrice worse than mine). Dorothy is still the soft spoken girl who somehow managed to laugh when Wilson speaks of something bad and notorious about his classmates. This was the first time that we iniated a gathering... or i should say, i initiated it coz the three of them aren't studying in the same school and are living at different parts of HK.

Venus
A little bit more about Venus. I hope u readers can tell that it is a person name and not a planet as im not going to tell you about the concentrated carbon monoxide composition in the atmosphere. Disclaimer: she is my good friend, nothing more than that. somehow my male kindergarden-mates like to brand us as couples. so... wadever...

Venus is one of the smartest girl among the same batch of kindergarden-mates whom i still keep in touch directly or indirectly. She is also one of the most discipline and organised people that i know. She only use the computer to do work and views MSN messenger as a distraction and hence she rarely comes online. Since i added her about a month ago, she only came online for once! For the past four years (since the 2003 reunion), she was the only person i managed to keep in touch via email. but due to some really weird reason, her email account go deleted (!!!) and we lost contact for the whole of last year. This trip back to HK, i brought along the her residential phone number and prayed hard that she didnt move to somewhere else. and i thank God for giving me this friend again as she didnt move. the moment i heard her bro's cute little voice on the phone, i knew god just gave me a miracle. (before u think im lying that i dont like her, this situation was similar to how i anticipated for wilson to pick up to phone, so nothing special)

so i went out with her after she "knocked off" from school and watched Eragon at Tsim Sha Tsui. thank goodness venus is not that much of a movie-goer, coz the movie was really bland. its like the teenage version of "Lord of the Rings" and the plot was not really exciting and original. but one thing i knew about her from that movie was that she is really a timid girl... there was this scene where the little dragon ate the mouse and she was the only person in the theatre to turn away from the screen!

after that we went to a food court nearby to have dinner. we talked lots of stuff, like what i did in IP, what places i visited when i was in Japan. we also talked about the syllabus that i had in IP and im so surprised that she is such a well-read person when it comes to current and historical affairs. then i found out she is an arts student and currently taking econs, commerce and finance, history, geography, maths, english and chinese. btw, ppl in HK learn about AD-AS too! so we were happily chatting about our common knowledge and im quite amazed about her opinions and views (all the evaluation and applications parts of the essay) of current affairs i.e. increase taxing to increase government budget for spending on the old aged (this was like integrating econs, politics and human geog together).

on another day, the four of us went to watch the movie 伤城 (confession of pain) by tony leung and takeshi kaneshiro. so the two timid girls really had "fun of a lifetime" in the theatre everytime they flashed the parts where tony leung brutally murdered his father in law. one funny thing happened when i told Venus to look away when takeshi took an empty beer bottle and walking up to another fella.

then she said, "what look away?"

and i replied, "just look away..."

the bottle was smashed down on the head and she screamed. LOL! i was still laughing when i was walking out of the theatre.

these three people really made this trip back to HK a little more different and i finally realise that friendships can stand the test of time, its up to us whether we want to cherish those fun, loving and caring people around us. i wish Venus and Wilson all the best for their HKCEE (HK's version of O levels) and promotional exam for Dorothy, after failing to get promotion last year when she missed the passing mark by just an "inch".

All in all, this trip back to HK and the holiday in Tokyo was really a fruitful one, but reality is just so cruel and i had to come back for schooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLL.... :( thank goodness there is still an orientation for me to stay in my holiday mood for a few more days.

How's your holiday? Too short.

tokyo

2006-12-29T08:25:00.000-08:00

Umm … I suppose this is a long awaited post, since I should have a lot to say from my trip to Tokyo and HK. So here goes, try not to be disappointed in what I did in Tokyo.

So it was an early flight to Tokyo, but who cares if I had to wake up at 5 to catch the flight? I have 8 hours of business class man, of course must enjoy the additional leg room and the comfy seat. The flight was so darn good, the service was excellent and the food is great too, not to mention that I already had a small breakfast at the UA lounge in the airport. (no more macs for breakfast)
We arrived at Tokyo at about 3 plus, taking a train out to Chiba took about an hour. We reached the hotel around 4pm and rendezvous with my aunt and uncle there. We went out for dinner some where at the underground of the train station of Chiba. Wanted to have buffet shabu-shabu actually, but the queue is freakin’ long?!?! Japs just love to eat beef, so it’s not surprising that the queues are that long. So we ended up in a small, cozy restaurant next to it.
On the second day, we went to the science museum of Chiba. The place is quite small actually, smaller than Singapore science centre and most of its exhibits are on practical sciences that are used in the industry. E.g. electricity and iron production. In the afternoon, we went out to Rippongi Hills, something like the Paragon of Singapore, but MUCH MUCH MUCH bigger. Got 4 towers and Grand Hyatt right next to it, so you guys can imagine all the Zara, Channel, Omega, Bose etc. etc. etc. It’s so big that it has 3 Starbucks at different locations! WTH?! BUT! I bought nothing there, so I’m not that rich after all. That night, we went down to Shinjuku to have dinner at this really small restaurant at the streets of 歌舞伎町 and had char-grilled tiger prawns and yakitori at comparatively bargain prices. Actually, when I went to Tokyo about 5 years ago, we went to the same restaurant and this time, we purposely looked for this particular restaurant and guess what, the man outside doing the grilling is still there!

The second day, we went out to Narita area for sightseeing and that was the day that I spent the most in Japan. That day, while my parents walked up to some hills to see red leaves (quite dumb, but they wanted to), I went to this small internet café and spent 500 yen for one hour of internet. We went back to Chiba for dinner and went to this fast food restaurant called 松屋 which sells vey delicious beef bowl, much better than Yoshinoya’s. The beef was slightly fatty, springy, tender and the together with the onions and gravy, the combination is just unbeatable. But that was just the first part of the meal. Then we walked to another restaurant that sells just BBQ food and yakitori. The best dish was the black pepper chicken and the fried pork belly. YUMMY!! (for those vegetarians that are reading this post, its not too late to convert back to normal omnivorous diet).

On the last day, we went to this shopping mall called Lala-Port at Osasuna. This shopping mall is another freakin’ big one, but had shops for a wider spectrum of consumers, unlike Rippongi hills. But the best is that this place has Tokyo Hands. So what is Tokyo Hands? Basically, it is something like high class Daiso, sells quality stuff. And I managed pick up some stuff and 2 souvenirs there. My father picked up a pocket magnifying glass to read newspaper! This shop really rocks… sell all kinds of funny, creative and useful stuff.

On another note, there are some comments that I like to make after this trip to Japan. I can tell you, chio and cute girls are EVERYWHERE on the streets, in the trains and even at the immigration counter, while the shuai guys are not defined by their looks, but mainly by the hair style they got, what a funny culture eh? Looking at how teens dress in Japan, it makes me think that Singapore teens are actually materialistic. Most of teens here in Singapore only knows how to go for the brands, (e.g. roxy, billabong, ripcurl etc.), but teens in Japan knows how to dress themselves up even without branded stuff, and I think they look better than Singapore teens even with brand-less clothes.

I really admire Japanese girls for one thing; they wear short skits even in winter!!! For the sake of looking pretty and trendy, they had to wear so little “cloth” and expose their legs to the chilly wind, I see some of them even have goosebumps , but still wear short skirts… wah.. im IMPRESSED! Talking about short skirts, I think if Sharon Phua were to be a discipline mistress in Japan, I think she will die of exhaustion in chasing after female students who wear short skirts.

so this is more or less what i got from Japan, i hope you guys enjoy reading this. I will try to upload the pics asap.

movies...

2006-12-15T10:34:00.001-08:00

So here goes part II …

Before I move on, let me tell you guys that I’m writing this post while on my business (YAY!) class flight from Tokyo to HK … and they are serving drinks now. The service is so damn good, after you take business, you don’t feel like taking economy class again.

So let me continue on my reflections for some of the movies that I had watched for the past few months.

Love/Romantic/Emo/Thought provoking movies

Surprised to see me talking about love movies? Well … its good to have some exposure and talk about the “feelings” and “emotions” after watching the movie.

1. 大城小事 – This is a love story starring Leon Lai and Faye Wong. Well, many of us think that these two actors are not part of our generation, but when it comes to movies, actors are just part of it, so we should look at things holistically. (we shouldn’t be like those dancers who thinks Step Up is nice because the choreography is nice – BE NEUTRAL!)

The story’s setting is in Shanghai (that’s why it is “大城”) and of course the romance between Leon Lai and Faye Wong (that’s why it is 小事) starts here. The story started with Leon Lai and Faye Wong breaking up. Surprisingly, it was Lai, who wants to break up with Wong, asked Wong out and Wong was the first to speak of breaking up! (SEE… not so predictable eh?) Though the reason was quite simple, they lost the feeling for the other party.

After a while, Lai regretted and began looking up for Wong. Wong deliberately avoids him using many ways but Lai eventually managed to find her and secretly move to the flat opposite hers. Coincidentally, both of them were hired by this old man. Lai becomes the personal doctor of this man, while Wong was the birthday planner for this man’s 80th birthday. Part of the celebrations was bringing the man up to 80 storey building to watch fireworks fired up from the river, and Lai has to ensure that the man’s weak heart can take such “excitement” The old man’s chatted with Lai and urges him to go back together with Wong. Sadly the old man died before his birthday.

On that man’s birthday, Lai tried to look for Wong again to reconcile with her. Wong agreed provided if he can find her. So he decided to search to whole of Shanghai for her and finally finds her right on the 80th storey where the old man was supposed to by viewing the fireworks. Then Wong asked him to say three words and Lai said something REALLY REALLY unpredictable.
“我知道你好想听我说 ‘我爱你’这三个字，我有千万个机会说这句话，可惜我没做到，所以我只想说，‘对不起’”

!!!! Damn unpredictable eh? Of course, it is a happy ending. But it is so darn unpredictable!

2. There was this Taiwan romance story that I watched a few months ago, the name of the movie is “喜欢你，喜欢我”. So this movie is about the romance between two couples, but I shall talk about only one of them (though both are equally good to talk about). Anyway, so there was this girl, called 金巧莉, lost her gangster boyfriend a few years ago. Since then, she found herself lost in life (e.g. go to school just to pon school). Her brother was disappointed that she is giving herself up and always forcing her to find a direction in life, so pressurizing that she decides to hide herself from him. One day while she was running away from her brother, she met this guy, called 杜臣峰, who helped her get away. And in the process of helping her, he started to like her.

This is the part where I start to like the movie. The girl knows that the guy likes her, but try to use every mean not to fall in love with him, because she is afraid of losing someone she loves again, especially if the guy’s father runs the black market. (which means he might get hacked to death some day) She said “爱一个人那么痛苦，得不到痛苦，失去更痛苦”. There was this time she bet with the guy that if the car driving towards them stops right in front of them, he will not fall in love with him, and the next moment, she ran out to the road and stop the car! (unpredictable again!) But of course, the guy was in time to save her.

The guy then said, “Have you not seen moving waters? Only when the water moves, then it will bring you further and bring you new things. Everything that comes will go as well. Instead of being pessimistic, why not send these memories off with a smile?”

Then again, she decides to hide herself from the guy this time! She told him that only if she finds the tears of truth and a thousand reasons to like her, then he shall go find her. While hiding, she shouted to the sea that he should not look for her, forget about her instead, but then, she said softly to herself, “不，不要忘记我”.

This time I shall not reveal the ending, but I think the plot was really unpredictable, lots of twist here and there, but the ending was predictable lah, romantic stories are always like that. I also find the love philosophy introduced at different parts of the movie to be very thought-provoking. So I shall give it… 3.5 stars.

watch this at youtube:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0k0qDuNQwk

3. The third movie that I watched, and worth talking about is the one that I watched ytd (14th Dec), yes in HK. The movie is 墨攻 by Andy Lau. So Andy Lau was this guy called Mozi Ge Li (墨子革离), a very smart guy who comes from a family that promotes this ideology called universal love （兼爱）. He helped to defend the city of Liang and became so popular that his popularity was even higher than the king! The king got jealous and removed him from power and he left, but many people were against the idea of removing him from power. The king began to send people hunt him down and his supporters in the city; this included the female general of the royal Calvary unit, Yi Yue (范冰冰饰演逸悦). Of course, she loved him and showed her support in many occasions when defending the city. One of her punishments for supporting Ge Li was to cut her voice box and make her a mute.

When she was about to be sentenced to death, the enemies made a surprise attack which captured the city in no time, and this made Ge Li to go back to Liang city and recapture it from the enemies, and to “rescue someone that is worth loving”. In the end, Ge Li won the city back, but the king still removed him from power and he left.

Though he won the city back, in the process of recapturing the city, he flooded the jails where Yi Yue was kept in. She drowned by the time Ge Li managed to find her. I think this was really sad because Yi Yue suffered too much for him! (Not to mention she look quite pretty as well, when she is dressed as a girl of course … hehe)Yet she still died in the end!!! So unfair!!!

All this happened when Ge Li promoted his family ideology of universal love. So what does universal love truly means? It is so difficult to love everybody, yea, EVERYBODY you know, not easy at all. There must be some occasion where you will have to “kill” somebody for the greater benefit right? (Sounds very MI now) So someone in the movie said, “你只知道兼爱，不知道选择该爱的人.” But if we choose who to love, isn't this not universal love? And if universal love brings jealousy, which ends up killing everybody, should we have universal love in the first place?

Another thought-provoking thing Ge Li mentioned in the movie was when he said this to the enemie’s general, “活下来，难道就是胜利吗？难道拿到梁城就能让那些5000个丧命的战士们回家吗?”

Other critics: http://yule.sohu.com/20061126/n246617206.shtml

Okay.. I shall blog about my trip to Tokyo and HK in the next post.

marathon of posts!

2006-12-07T07:41:00.000-08:00

It has been six months (5 months plus, round up) since I last posted, so I decided to clear the “web” and “dust” over here by posting a “marathon” of posts. Don’t blame me, school SO busy, need to MUGGGG so much to get ‘A’ leh… of course no time to post lah! For the past month (Nov), I had been diligently going to IMRE for my research attachment. When u are alone in the lab with four walls and with the experiment set-up in front of you, it is quite natural that people to some self reflection… The past 6 months was very memorable (everything in IP is always very memorable one, I think…), reason being it is the last 6 months of “honeymoon years” of IP, in the coming two years, we are going to get down and dirty with A levels.

So here it goes… you might want to get a glass of water

OBS

OBS was fun, gave me lots of exciting and new experience, doing things that I will never do again in my life. I think my watch rocks. Holt ROXXORS!!!! Again it was a bunch of people from different classes, of different personality, doing things together crazily. I still remember how Gladys laughed at Tony and Xuandao when they used the poncho that Jade used to cover herself while doing her business into the sea for their blanket. They thought of many creative ideas in preventing themselves from rolling into the sea when they slept at the bow. They thought of tying themselves to the rail but gave up the idea when there is a possibility that they will strangle themselves before rolling into the sea. Xuandao also talked about the jib as a 比喻 of Zhirong “let fly” à “hehe”, “back the jib” à block zhirong! I still remember doing cartel sentry with Doris, Reg, Kenneth and Jiafang. I ended up being “chilled to sleep” by the sea breeze, while the rest of them just chatted all the way for the whole night. But the best experience that I got was from Sea-Ex as I missed kayaking so much after kayaking at SJI ACE camp in Malaysia two years ago. The weather was not bad, slightly breezy and cloudy, and the sea was relatively calm. Being one of the leaders (though I was leading at the back) around was really satisfying and as the back-man, I got to encourage those hopeless souls who couldn’t catch up with the rest. I’m very happy to see everyone so determined when their bodies and minds were put to test. Don’t think back-man is a slack job okay! We couldn’t be too fast or too slow. Too fast and we will demoralize those already-hopeless souls. Too slow, we will have a hard time catching up. This is more difficult that rowing all the way as we don’t “row with momentum” – a different mentality. I was overjoyed when I learnt that we came in 2 hours before the other batch of IPs!!!! Kudos to everyone man. In addition, we sailed one of the tightest diamond-formation the instructors ever seen! Brought me great sense of achievement also!

I think if we can put determination in kayaking into studies, I think we can really become crazy muggers! Hahaha. Well… I think we must have determination to push ourselves and drive ourselves beyond our personal limits (a.k.a “comfort zone”), that is what OBS is all about anyway. When we succeed, we won’t care about all the sufferings we have go through… I mean, if you get straight A’s in A levels, you think you would still care about all the “studying-till-4am-and-wake-up-at-6am” efforts? Come to think of it… perhaps Reg learnt too much on determination in OBS.. HAHAHA. (don’t murder me reg…)

OBS (part II) – Hypocrites?

On another note, OBS really made some of us sound like hypocrites. How many of us actually complained, groaned, moaned, and cursed about this OBS before we were “forced” to sign up? “I rather have another week of enrichment week”, “Wah! So ex, pay so much just to torture ourselves” I still remember Louisa and Samantha repeating Mark Low’s “ONLY!” in front of the whole LT when he mentioned the price. Then one week later, some of us came out saying “I want to go OBS again”, giggling about the fun memories that we had and even talking how different the camp would be if zhirong (and his can-de-lah spirit) was around. (And he indeed was at the punggol jetty to pick dunno-who up). How hypocritical were we….

Fantasy…

So there was one free CAAL period somewhere during term 3, and Cat STRONGLY suggested on watching High School Musical as a class and everyone “unanimously” agreed. While watching the movie, Kenneth said he watched the movie before. Given that this movie can make Kenneth sit down and watch it again, I thought: this movie should have some substance. After all, we know Kenneth’s life is mainly occupied by soccer, studies and Jiafang… wah, got extra time for this movie, confirm-plus-guarantee-chop damn good…

Well, I think the movie was really good, the plot was inspiring, the songs were catchy, but the ending was very predictable, given that this type of movie should have a positive ending. How can Disney produce some movie that will shatter dreams of kids that watch the show?!?
A quote from iWeekly (translated from Chinese): no doubt it is a fantasy movie, “sugar-coated” and “well packaged”, but we just like to make ourselves feel crazy and fantasize on our own future.

Quite true indeed…

A few days ago, I left my research institute early and I decided to watch Step Up alone… yes.. ALONE, after several failed attempts to ask people to go out with me when I’m very busy usually. After watching, I think Step Up was a “trap” laid for teens (like us). Do you know that the movie production cost was only 12 million (USD) and gained 65 million? And it is ONLY based on box office in USA and Canada. The plot was quite well balanced with drama, romance and action, though there were certain parts where it was quite vague to me (due to cultural differences perhaps?). In terms of the casting, the girl (Jenna Dewan) was pretty, hot, but PLEASE PLEASE, the guy is NOT HOT AT ALL. There is this difference between guys who fit into the role and guys who are hot, Channing Tatum (very weird name) belong to the prior category. He has small eyes, crew cut, big built and his anything-would-do and heck-care personality just fit entirely into the role of a “rebellious” teen. And because of his personality, his romantic scenes are quite flat… the kiss was really flat… For girls, forget about Channing Tatum, for guys, forget about Jenna Dewan, as both of them are already together (are your hopes dashed yet?)

The action or the dance scenes were really good, but since this movie is about dance, so more or less the quality should be there.The ending was not that good as it was TOO FAST! (Faster that Jay Chou’s AE86!!) I can summarize the ending in about 80 words…

Skinny’s murder inspired Tyler and Mac to fight for their dreams. Tyler decides to dance with Nora and rushed to the performing theatre in time. Tyler persuades Nora to give him a chance to dance with her and realize his dream, even though she prepared a solo routine. Nora eventually agreed and their performance was stunning. Mac, Director Gordon and the dance scouts were impressed. Director Gordon accepted Tyler’s application for a transfer to the school, while the dance scouts expressed interest in both dancers. (85 words)

And that was the last 20 minutes of the movie..

And with this I give it three stars. To any dancers out there, try not to judge the movie because the choreography was really cool; don’t let your emotions control you! Be neutral!!! It is meant to be cool anyway…

I think movies like Step Up or High school musical will never happen in our lives. Sometimes, we just need these fantasies to inspire us and keep our fighting spirits on the high. Some people may think these movies are stupid and crappy as they are all virtual reality and burning holes in our pockets. However, I think success in our lives beings with little seeds of ambitions, which are quite “virtual” at the initial stages.

Ass Week

As usual, study until damn late like only one week before the tests. I think most of us have the hang of last minute studying after 2 years in IP, which is never recommended, but as long as we get A’s (A+ for Reg), who cares? If it takes Reg to do TYS 2 times to get A+, she confirm , die-die, plus guarantee chop will do it. Sometimes, I kind of get jealous to see someone so “on” in studying, while I’m playing CS-CZ everyday… haha. Gives me the motivation to mug sometimes, THANK YOU REGINA LIM! (HAHA.. sounds damn sarcastic…)

Higher Chinese O levels

- HCL prelims are stupid
- HCL O levels Prep camp was quite stupid and crazy as well
- HCL 应用文 was really stupid
- HCL 作文 was stupid too

All these equates to me getting a B or lower. Why stupid? The Paper one was totally crap after trying to spot on the topics for like one whole month

When friends become not so “friends” (maybe not even friends in the beginning…)

-1- Sometimes, I do feel like whacking Kenneth and Andrew (and the rest who went for the same tuition) they did question 2 in compo before!!! What a big “WAHLAU!?!?!”! it is as if they got a tip off! And I had no choice but to do that stupid bao zhang bao dao in which I myself have no idea what I was writing, confirm can get only 30+ only. While Kenneth and he rest will get 45+ scores. The world is just so unfair, some things in life are just so based on luck and chance, study probability also no use (no more MA2104 YAY!) on another note, perhaps I might get a “tip off” in A levels?

-2- An encounter on Bus – One day as I was going home from NUS, coincidentally, I met a friend on the bus, both of us were equally surprised to see each other (yea.. go calculate the probability please…). Since the seat next to me was wet, so my friend sat opposite me. I tried to spark a conversation and it ended up being a question-answer conversation. Obviously, I’m the one with all the questions.

Eventually, I gave up, and between us was a gulf of silence and air of solemn. My friend was “lucky” (well.. perhaps not lucky) to be busy with sms-ing, but I had nothing to sms! I had an iPod in my pocket (that time I still haven’t lost it yet), but that is the no.1 item forbidden in the art of socializing! With nothing to say and nothing to do, I decided to look around aimlessly (just like most passengers that travels alone).

But the funny thing here is that I can’t look in front! I thought: my friend would think I am starring at him/her, so better don’t look straight. So my friend ended up being the “roadblock” of my vision and I had to swing my head from side to side.

Lesson learnt: when you think you are the luckiest person on Earth to meet your friend on the bus, think again… may not be THAT good after all. But maybe, I treated this person as “my friend” while this person treats me as an acquaintance. Then that would be really, truly, deeply saddening… :(

This is first half of the “marathon of posts”, I will try to post the remaining stuff when I have internet connection in HK. Oh, by the way, I wrote the above posts when I was traveling on SMRT every time I go for research attachment. People can get quite emo on trains as well (:

holidays...

2006-06-19T08:22:00.000-07:00

holidays are ending in a week's time man... im beginning to have a "back to school" disease symptoms. i cant bear to see myself mugging again after 4 weeks of con zero, warcraft, star wars, movie.... sigh....

i dunno why... but my parents have been "doting' on me for the past few weeks. it used to be me saying," im going to checkout the addidas shop over there". this time, the tables have turned, they asked me," you want to check whether there is a sale at the addidas or the nike shop?" , "yea.. that "formation" addidas shirt is not bad, but we think the nike "total 90" shirt is better in terms of quality". now i realise why the month of june is teh great singapore sale, even my parents start asking me about buying clothes. perhaps that is the way to push the economy eh? watch out guys... economy doing too good may not be good eh. scarly they cut benefits from here and there and raise taxes here and there, haha, too much of econs last term.

talking about econs... its going to be boring history next term. SUPER sad that its not james han teaching us...

in two weeks time, we'll be back to OBS again... i think OBS is going to be fun and enriching, a bit of "back to ubin" feeling. but sad that we are not with 02 and 05, those are where the fun and SJI people are, coz SJI people rule in any camp! hahaz

perhaps i should start updating other stuff in the blog like what ben hong said...

back to school...

not too bad...

2006-05-26T03:35:00.000-07:00

I guess.. ass week wasnt so bad after all

some regrets: careless in maths paper, screwed up MI test and no A+...

some JOY!: B for chinese, A for LA (like once only and provided if i didnt calculate wrongly)

some congrats from me: to kenneth goh for getting A+ for his MI AGAIN?! to reg for getting A+ for maths (dont whack me when school reopens.. even though u will be in epsilon)

some sympathy from me: to xiaoying, miss A for chinese by 0.02%, to wendy who miss out A+ for MI by 0.5% (anymore close encounters to the next grade?)

those with alot of taikou-ness: wendy aw, kenneth goh, perhaps me... haha...

AND

to all of us who suffered: -5 marks for wrong words in zuowen.. what more can we ask for? -6 marks? haha

i guess.. dont need paris alrd... i need HK --> SHOPPING!!!

Paris

2006-05-23T07:40:00.000-07:00

I think i got another reason for Paris... coz it is a city of love!... like anyone care? hahaha (crap reason...)

Maths sucks... 38/50... and i am not happy...

tml got mechanics, maths 2104... alamak... die liao...

sad

2006-05-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

I have an instinct that im screwing this ass week also...

Though exams have ended, the pain of knowing that you are wrong in certain questions definitely haunts me.

I have no idea why i make those mistakes, but it sounds so stupid after making them. I just felt that i screwed up all my papers. And there goes my grades, all going to dunno where... hell perhaps...

How can i let go of these burdens, how can you let go of your A's? can someone tell me how?

Paris or Egypt? Paris better, coz it is that is where Champion's League is held.

No longer a pro... (if i am one)

2006-04-28T03:20:00.000-07:00

Jason is no longer a pro in anything... (if you dont think i'm a pro in the first place... then just treat as if you didnt read that sentence just now)

why?

coz he cant do the last question in his maths test... which is totally stupid. ironically... he knows how to do most of his tutorials question but cant even simplify a fraction in the freakin test...

implications?

- dont ask him for answers... coz his answers are kind of wrong sometimes
- people like wendy will become more pro (well...she is DAMN pro)
- actually.. he is not THAT great (apart from the fact that he has chewing gum... not very great either...) so there shouldnt be much implications on other people

Is he going to do anything about it?

most probably, he will have to stay up till 2am every night because he has to juggle between crazy badminton trainings which just started 3 weeks before ass week. which will be an ass again...

what happens if it turns out to be an ass again?

- erm... think he reached his mugging limit... cant go any further...

this is not crap...

Ass week...

2006-03-09T05:56:00.000-08:00

Ass week... has really been an ass. I feel that im a total failure...

though the first day was kind of a "clean-sheet" for me... but the second and third day is nowhere good.

ytd's bio-org paper was considered trivial with relavance to chem arithmetic. during chem arithmetic, i had no idea what the questions were asking and i dont know what to say. there were some questions that i tikam through but some were TOTALLY a failure. take the last part for example, i managed to do the question (yes.. i know some did not), but the problem is, i punched the wrong values into the calculator! so what's the point in wasting time on that stupid question. another one is... what is the balanced equation of the reaction between hydrogen and oxide. i have no idea why on earth did my stupid instinct tell me to put hydrogen peroxide is formed? STUPID answer... stupid Jason to put a stupid answer...

then came chinese... people are like complaining about copying the first three para for the first question in compre, and guess what i did, all i wrote was from the first para! a six mark question and i just used one para of text for my answer... wth lah, im courting my own doom. and i confirm that i wont get a B.

this morning's IH DRQ was like giving a smack on my face. we speculated what topics will come out, and they did. and i felt that i just anyhow write for the paper, especially for the last two questions, the two most crucial one... and i screwed it up. how am i going to get a full list of A with this kind of score?

but maths was the biggest blow. after the exam, i see wendy, joanne, mich, kenneth all rejoicing when i cant even figure out how to do some questions. they were so smart by knowing that mod of fraction = mod of numerator / mod of denominator. and they also knew how to find the exact values of the stupid equation. i was thinking... am i fit to be an epsilonian? even omegan ppl know how to do these trivial questions, the test was NO-KICK to them at all!

dont say jason is an ass, insulting u all by saying this. dont say im pro, im a mugger, when u are doing compound formulae, im doing supplementary exercises. im always ahead of u ppl in normal classes, i save ur day when i teach people how to do their tutorials when they are stuck, when i myself was stuck without help at first... what's the point? you ppl out there is still much better than me! why degrade urselves? WHY? I seriously think that im not anywhere good. people like eesha and reg (no insults) are referred as hardworkers of the class. they work every hard, using every single second that they can spare to dedicate to work, finding out solutions even if it takes to go an extra mile.... IM ACTUALLY LIKE THEM! i work hard also, im stuck in questions before other people are stuck in it. i go for the extra mile to look for solutions when i bug mr tan for them. i do things ahead of time, when i actually used every second in my 2 hours tution of maths, physics and chem to learn and understand concepts the hard way like everyone did. BUT this is not being smart, this is only being smart in front of others, but not to urself.

i realised why people often say determination is the key to success, and why people fail to achieve certain goals when they gave up midway. how would people like reg and eesha fail when they really put their hearts and mind into work? how would people fail when people like wendy and joanne are just so smart? i think i begin to empathise on these people who failed. they are determined, but its just that no matter how determined they was, they just dont achieve. no matter how hard they worked, how many hours of revision they did, they just cant reach their goals. they are pulled away from their dreams and back into reality by their personal limitations. this is why people fail... coz when expectations continues to go higher and higher, ur limit doesnt. its just like the hooke's law! there is a limit of proportionality! u cant just keep on streching the rubber band forever... it will break! and i think mine had just broken.

well... things that are brokened can be placed back together, but the scars of pain and agony will nvr be dissolved. it just happened today... right after experiencing my own failure. i walked out of school today, knowing that i just screwed my whole ass week. however, at the SSEF grounds, there is no room in my mind to think about these things. and these memories begin to root into the deepest part of the brain... so deep and u hope that it would be so dark, u would not be able to see or find it. when i was having dinner with my parents tonight, they asked me how was my day, and from that point onwards, this painful memory begin to function like a brain tumour which kills off all my energy and spirit. in split seconds, i was dead silent with my arms crossing and my head staring towards the ceiling. and worst still, my parents think that im sleepy because of the lack of sleep for the past 4 days. cant they tell that their son is in a depressed mood? cant they tell that their son is working like a cow and going nowhere on the field of his academics?

after dinner, we went back to the IT show, which was held in suntec. as i walked past the creative stalls, i was not fancied by the multicoloured players or their REAL REAL sound blaster systems. when i accidentally hit someone in the crowds, i can hardly put up a smile and say sorry as a sign of courtesy. when my parents stopped to look on some things, i just continued to walk straight...

i dont know why am i screwing myself up lately, perhaps its too much of jedi outcast? but i think, to be normal and active, we should relax ourselves at least once everyday to give ourselves a mini reward. but this relaxation should not be the cause of my failure...

whatever it is, i reached to a conclusion that A and A+ dont come from being smart and go ahead of time, but from pressure that mounts on you which is like a ghost chasing right behind u for life and u are forced to run as fast as you could.

watch me come online at 3am next term

phew

2006-02-10T07:30:00.000-08:00

2 weeks just flew past... with dont know how many homework submited.

seems that IP is really back to the normal mode. As usual, the homework, the projects, the stress, trainings are all back. sighs....

umm.. for this post, i shall put these aside and write about something else. umm.. CNY is about to end, so i started counting my "blessings"... hehe... the amount i receive shall be undisclosed, but... it is a four digit number!!! hahaha. well.. that should be able to finance another sports shoe, perhaps another racket, ummm... some presents for the people in class, perhaps clothes (if my mum allows...)

what else is significant to be mentioned here?.. let see... umm.. IP juniors is a good topic. man, their relationships seems to last faster than changing underwears.. seems that only zhirong can catch up with them... (wonder why?? haha.. very obvious eh). into one month of being senior alrd... but so far.. the SJI spirit dont seem to have go any further apart from CT reps knowing the CT reps. (SJI = Senior Junior Interaction... and yes.. zhirong is a good example) BUT... i was particularly happy when a juniors see me and say "hi Jason!" (not just a "hi", but "hi Jason"). i have this instant feeling that... WAH! im a senior alrd. these are little things that count in life.. haha

so the drama series sunshine hearbeat ended on channel 55. in case for those who nvr watch, it is a drama series with a very young cast, about 4 years older than us. so the story began with this prophecy that says that at 18 yrs old, the big sis of the yip family will find her fated lover, and the similar fate for the other two younger sis. the only clue to find her fated lover is that this person will bear a birthmark of a four-leaf clover. and one day, the three of them saw the beach volleyball captain with this birthmark! and the two younger sisters helped to pave the eldest sis' way into the team (though she knows nothing about volleyball!). so the plan worked out and they were together. but one day, they accidentally came by this notorious guy in school that also have the same birthmark! the eldest sis dont know what to do, but she find this guy's character is very mysterious and wants to know more. the more she knew, the more she accepted him as a friend as she finds out that he is actually a very caring a filial person. at the same time, the second sis realise that she has feelings for the volleyball captain too! now things began to warp and some sophisticated relationships are created. so in the end, after lots of observations on little actions, the captain realise that things cant work out like this way. so they broke up and guess what? "notorious guy" ended up with big sis and captain ended up with second sis. moral of the story... umm... based on the story, the person who made this prophecy is actually a gypsy, and she said that, you dont know who controls this fate of urs, so even if your fated lover is as rare as the four leave clover, u must always be in search for it, coz he or she wont just bump into u. you have to work your way to it. and that is what the whole story was about.. haha... nice right? i think this drama series is chao good, but perhaps this is a idol drama, so thats the whole purpose, to make people like me feel inspired and envy the characters.

well.. it is a pity that this show doesnt have english subtitles.. haha.. so people like elaine siew cannot watch. coz she cant catch what the people are saying! haha

seems that this is really a long post.. haha

Mr Ho: why you all dont like chinese, what about LA, it is a language subject too
05ip03: since when we like LA?
Mr Ho: then if you dont communicate in chinese, and not in english, then talk and write with what?
KS: let's sin x each other. should we cos x kenneth?

little things that count in life...

CNY

2006-01-27T06:11:00.000-08:00

two weeks nvr update... i feel that i have a lot to say... but i shall only post on today's stuff.

umm.. so its CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! (and not to mention 5 days of hols before the REAL stuff come) i can see the $$ in the pupils of our eyes. haha

today was a great day man. it was dress down day, so i wore my favourite levis jeans with a red hangten top eh. exchange of oranges was very fun this morning!! haha, everyone crowded around mr loh, coz he's married. HAHAHAHA, are you guys disappointed? we are not greedy people eh... how about giving an A' for us for IS2108 and IS2103? haha

umm... the concert was not bad, but it is a pity that i didnt watch the lion dance and chinese dance perform. actually i saw them practice, but nvr had a chance to see them perform live. in exchange for that, we got some good news for our project. well, it is sort of extra pressure, as there would be higher authorities looking at our project and expecting it to do well. PRESSURE GUYS, but EUROPE should be the driving force for our team (and eesha.. haha)

went back to SJI straight after concert ended. i managed to find MRS TAN!!!! i couldnt find her the last 3 times i went back, what a surprise this time. i saw many teachers left, but she hasnt! had a good talk with her, chat on stuff like the SJI-IP and the josephian programme for st mikes people. i also had a chat with mr lim, my favourite science teacher that taught me bio in sec one and two. (he is as good as mrs fong... some quality he has eh...)man, he is still the same. i looked for mr low also, my PE and head of level. i had a MATURE talk with him man, he seems to know so much about our IP that i really need to stand firm on the ground when i talk with him.

went out with jamie, justin, jiayi and jeremy on the same bus out to orchard. what a FUNKY ride we had man. i still cant forget what jamie said... "its be-kind-to-animals day, so i shall not insult you". now that is what i call OWNAGE. i just opened my mouth and said nothing. (couldnt imagine these things comes out from a girl, but.. its jamie that can say this.. haha)

played CS with jeremy, justin, johnson, colin, ernest and ben at marina for two hours. oh man... it was OWNAGE for me. haha.. and half of the time ben died becoz i killed him... ROFL!! he was wahlau-ing ALL the way... what is so funny about playing with them is that, the terrorist dont know how to plant the bomb even if they had it! and the counter terror people dont know how to diffuse a planted bomb! omg... so damn farnie sia. thank goodness what rayshio and terrence nvr come.. or else, they own the 2 hours to themselves lah.. lol

this is what IP really means... FUN!!! we should start a cyber games club eh. haha

second week...

2006-01-13T08:12:00.000-08:00

umm.. first two weeks of school had past... time flies quite fast eh... (especially if you are sleeping in class)

i think it is becoz of the orientation that is preventing the IP 2s going into top speed studying, mugging and training. feeling a bit relaxed for the first two weeks. another reason might be becoz we are alrd seniors, we know how to do things the IP way. like for example, we dont get worked up becoz of simple projects, we finish maths tutorials before we are even asked to do so.

surprisingly... i manage to finish harry potter and the goblet of fire, order of pheonix and half blood prince in just 3 weeks. to some of u... that is wols, but to someone that took like.. 3 months to finish the first book... pls empathise on my part. well, u can say im quite lag coz im only reading this now. but nevertheless, im still interested in reading them. i find that as long as u have the interest in reading that book, you can really fork out every single second of your free time just to read one page or two page. i sound like im getting very "potty", hehe.

umm... reading harry potter made me feel that there is something special about going to school. well.. even though we dont have mrs cheng like albus dumbledore... but we have... snape as... ahemAKahem... shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. then we have lovely subjects like governance and society, compared to defence against the dark arts. boring subjects like... chinese? just like history of magic taught in hogwarts. haha. of course, NJ doesnt have chamber of secrets or philosopher's stone (maybe mrs tan has one), but im sure that sometimes we really want to hold our pens out and shout "sectumsempra" on our tutorials or "avada kedavra" on ppl like me or ben? (for those who are evil.. perhaps a "crucio" before "avada kedavra"?)

well, reading into the fourth, fifth and the six book, actually we find the pensieve a very common magical object written. in the book, it is often used by dumbledore to store his countless memories. but i was thinking, sometimes, u just feel like getting some things i.e. events or emotions off the mind. for example, if a girl rejects u badly during mass dance, i think i would throw that memory straight away. or some ppl make insulting comments, and that is surely going straight into the basin.

spare a thought, how would our lives be different if you can just throw things out of ur mind. (this is definitely not useful when ass week comes of course... haha)

sectumsepra on tutorials

First post of the year

2006-01-03T06:41:00.000-08:00

FIRST POST OF THE YEAR!!! (big deal...) still happy new year to all.

so... first day of school... lots of changes. shall not say all here. some are changes for good while some are not. how i wish that the alarm clock did not ring this morning at 6am? 2 months whizzed past, just like a dream, a dream that no one would ever want to wake up from. but that alarm this morning, woke me up like a hypnotized person was back to his consciousness. WAKE UP!

umm.. well.. there are good things to look forward to in 2006... let see
- we are still together
- no more AK, ms wong take over
- double PE periods (mich loves this)
- FIFA world cup 2006
- we are SENIORS!!!
- can watch NC 16 movies
- my birthday... like durh
- christmas? haha.. thats too far away

of course.. when there is yin, there is yang... bad stuff for 2006
- same class with michelle
- get myself landed in epsilon
- trainings end at 8 everytime
- four maths modules and 5 sciences for the third semester
- ultimately: MORE WORK, MORE ASSIGNMENTS, MORE TEST, MORE PROJECTS, MORE....

well.. i shall be neutral about this... but it is our streaming year... so JIAYOU IP03!!!!!!

Jason

Chalet

2005-12-28T07:03:00.000-08:00

umm... so this might be the last post of the year...

well, christmas is finally over. this year's christmas was so different from last year's. a year ago, i think i would still be playing AOE, SWGB and starcraft for the whole day. but this year, i still have work to do over christmas. STaR programme is really taking a heavy toll on me, after six months of research now then i got SOME result.

went out for a stroll on orchard road few days before christmas. i was looking for a belt at wisma atria. i started off with OP and then billabong. by the time i reached Topman, i nearly fainted upon looking at the price tag man. a belt is like 40+ bucks man. i was wondering, if a good belt cost $40, then how much would a 'perfect suit' cost? i guess it would be like $250+. finally, i went back to samuel and kelvin to get one for $15.

so guess what i got for christmas? i got an Age of Empires 3, half a iPod nano, and a levi jeans (for $45, the cheapest in the stall). not a bad combo isnt it?

then it was chalet for china trippers man. guess what i did there the moment i arrived? i was doing the magazine AGAIN! wahliews, mr ho wont let us off man.. haha. well.. i still have my name on the editorial page. (acknowledged) though there is no liquor (yuen yi can take REAL note of this - no heineken, no tiger), but we had lots of games all the way till 5am. we played bridge, daidi, murderer, pulse, concentration game, 007. while some of us were knocked out by 5am, me, jayen, liuxuan, shiqi, yingcong and perklun went out to the beach to wait for sunrise and we are like... 1 hour plus early for sunrise thanks to jayen. got back to the chalet at 8 after breakfast and slept for 2 hours.

and next is... IMRE... wahlau again. i nearly fell asleep in the lab when i was reading those scientific journals. lots of work!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?! ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

countdown to school.. countdown to the worst fears...

PICS!!

2005-12-16T06:19:00.000-08:00

YO PPL!!! pics have arrived... after sorting out from... 3000 pics from 10 different cameras. these are some of the elite ones. shall not go to the bad stuff

Westlake... clear waters, some bridges with romantic stories, some trees... not a bad place for a start

this is sun yat sen memorial hall at nanjing. this place got LOTS of steps, 300 something steps. nice spot for PT

this is zhou zhuang, somewhere in jiang su. this place is also known as the venice of the east. lots of rivers waters around, with ppl washing clothes, vegetables and "businesses" as well.... did they add chlorine??

shi zi lin at jiangsu again. yup.. these rocks look alive..

thats me at heng shan. nice view isnt it?

this place is big enough for 6 person daidi, mahjong for four, muderer for 10 ppl, and sleep for four... lots of activities here...

talking about idol qualities... we are not that bad...

this school has a very nice view.. right opposite the TV tower

jing yan secondary.. home to 6 thousand plus students... wusi, wuduo, daixi, rongsquare and long came from this school too!

national day parade??? joking lah... but this is what i mean by home to six thousand plus students...

J1s with their chinese host... the first girl from the right on the first row looked a bit like sylvia from IP02.. but andrew doesnt think the same way... haha

night view at shang hai tan.... looks crazy?!?!

day view from shang hai tan... from another angle of course...

cheng huang miao... man.. i love this photo.. (coz i took it)

ok.. everyone's happy... but im not.. coz im the one who bought the least.. so i hold the camera... and mr chan is holding ice mocha?? during winter??

thats all folks... no more...

Back from China

2005-12-15T08:35:00.000-08:00

FINALLY BACK FROM CHINA!!!!

man... two weeks of no-internet, no-telephone, no-laptop, no-cableTV is sure a rather bad experience. however, in exchange of these, i made lots of new friends (both from china and NJ). well, thats the whole point for going an exchange programme. lots of smiles, jokes (there are so many that i shall not mention here), laughter and bridge and daidi throughout the whole trip!! haha

went to many places for this trip, hangzhou, nanjing, suzhou, changsha, zhuzhou and shanghai. lots of places to go within two weeks isn't it? yup, its all jammed-pack. as you can see, there are so many places to go, which implies lots of bus rides. and the best way to kill time is to take a deck of cards to play either daidi or bridge. (FYI: daniel is the no. 1 screener man... watch out! haha) I'm sure mrs cheng won't want to see this on our reports, haha.

well.. for the first week of the trip, we went to lots of scenic spots like westlake, sun yat sen memorial hall, temples, zhou zhuang , suzhou industrial park etc. each spot have interesting stories to tell and the sights are real beautiful. but talking about sightseeing, and of course, going up to the nan yue heng shan is the best place man. high up at 1291m from sea level, even doing ur "business" there has a different feeling compared to doing it on ground level.

the second week of the trip is more of exchange as we arrived at Jing Yan Secondary (equivalent to singapore's sec school and JC), the school where long, rongsquare, wuduo, daixi and wusi came from. we played basketball, soccer, tug o war with the students and had lots of fun. we had lessons together with the students too, IPs had chinese (obviously killer), bio, maths and geog lessons. with sixty students per class, and one loud and united response from them make sure that we wont fall asleep! when our class were over, some of us were interviewed by 3 different TV stations in Hunan, giving us this VIP feeling. and i was interviewed too!! (becoz of handong going around say im an american... and you know.. ppl are kind of political nowadays, so they want response from different nationalities) each of us also had a one night's stay (not stand) with our host to learn more about their learning journey in china, zhuzhou in particular. there was a party for the students and us, so we all went crazy playing games together with our host.

the last two days was nothing but SHOPPING!!!! in shanghai, we tried not to waste a single moment to land our hands on cheap and bargain-able stuff!!! and since i have been given order from my parents for not to buy anything for them.. i ended up buying the least among everyone in the team... haha. we went around to take pics as well, especially shang hai tan (very famous place that many old buildings with european architecture still exist and faces the Oriental Pearl TV tower) it was a pity that it was foggy and raining the night we went there, so we went there again the next morning... but of course... the night view is always better...

well.. that should sum up the trip... oh, one more thing.. handong was enlightened by my lameness throughout the trip, so he's kind of lame nowadays. try to get used to the new him.. haha

shall upload the pics later...

HPnGOF

2005-11-22T06:14:00.000-08:00

thought that i lost my keys on monday morning, coz i cant find it everywhere, even after searching my bag for five times! was really scared though, even my mom helped me to look for it and went to search every single corner of the house... still nothing! then at night my father urged me to check my bag again... unwillingly, i opened my bag and turn upside down. and there it is, my keys! my father suspected it to be slotted between the pages in my bible.... lol.. perhaps it is a message from God that i should seek him for help whenever im in trouble... even for the smallest trouble...

went to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire today with mr loh, KS, jiayi, feli, cat and jy. saw 2 of the IJ TP badminton girls, me and jiayi were being gentlemen and noded to them with a smile. (hoping for forgiveness on the court?? haha) anw, they actually dated with guys... haha.. shall not go further... anw, the movie was not bad... i shall give it... 3.5 stars, 4 for max. was quite captivating, but the start was a bit confusing when we saw viktor krum and old men on the broomstick and then with KKK ppl dressed up in black and fire burning up everything. however, the arrival of both burmstrang and beaubaxton was really cool... first was the pegasus and the rocking carriage (no one gets dizzy though) and the pirate ship cum submarine looks quite.. waterproof i believe. next... the entrance was quite spectacular. first up was beauxbaton, they were like butterflies in blue? but their uniform was a bit like.. air hostess... you know.. the 45 degree slanted hat and a tie around the neck but nevertheless, elegant. their champion, delacour was indeed beautiful...(haha.. sorry to ben and gerrard)but unfortunately got knocked out twice in the tournament. if i could ask her a question.. i would ask, why she likes to kiss people on the forehead? (oops.. this is a PG movie) but their headmaster... is really a HEADmaster!! haha. next up was burmstrang. ok.. these guys look very mean (just like their headmaster and their champion), their entrance was more like marching with firesticks... with a bit of vandalism when the struck the floor hard. viktor krum, on surface... to me... he really look like a bad boy that just came out of NS. however, he was quite charming when he asked for a dance from hermione. SORRY GERRARD AND BEN.. again

lets talk about cedric.. im very sad to say (to his fans particularly), im against HIM!! haha... im not jealous over a dead person... but i dont find much cute-ness, shuai-ness from him... sorry folks.... i shall be against him! and support DELACOUR... rofl. anw.. he was quite redundant at the end when he was killed the moment he got thru.. by that navada kadabra spell (isit that spelling??)

oh.... shit.. gotta prepare for presentation tml... shall stop here.. haha

happy

2005-11-18T06:10:00.000-08:00

umm.. IM VERY HAPPY TODAY... haha

coz i won two games and lost one!!!! what an ACHIEVEMENT!! me and jiayi are getting better up against, THE IJ GIRLS!!! hahaha. -getting confident

well.. one of our match was real close with a score of 17-16. PHEW. and we won be a diving save to the shuttle which was just enough to push it over the net and for our opponents to make the mistake. but the match was not an easy one. we were trailing 2-7, then climb up to 7-9 thanks to my PROed serves and jiayi's raquet, we continued to 9-12, when the girls suddenly "came to their senses" and was winning 14-12!! (match point) we fought back again to make it 14 all but they were not ready to give up, 16-14!!! (match point 2) me and jiayi were back on our toes and fought back hard, 16 all! and it was the very moment where jiayi made a close service, which the girl return with a drop... and..... i dived down, scratching jiayi's raquet on the floor and WAHLA! the ball went over unexpectedly and the girl was caught off guard when she failed the lift the ball over the net! i dropped onto the floor coz that shot took my breathe away. i told jiayi, im breathing air.. FINALLY! what a glorius moment.

oh.. two more things i have discovered today thru the IJ girls (again). i realised that our dear captain.. is not only the "prime minister" but also our "minister of foreign affairs"!!! coz i think he is the only person in the NJ badminton team with Nicole and sharon's MSN! (jaw drops) wahlau... so much for the publicity, thanks to mr tan wen hao's "cruel" (named by nicole) playing style. nevertheless, this proved that WH is the right man to be our captain, coz he simply has this friendly face with a cheeky smile that often makes other people to "get to know him better".

second is... IJ girls play LF2!!! could u believe it? girls playing LF2?!?!?!? i was playing in front of them when Nicole (yes.. HER AGAIN.. dunno why arh.. she got ALOT to say one) said about playing with his bro and using cheats such as LF2.net and make 8 julians to challenge crazy mode level 5. lol... these girls are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO different from IP girls man. if you ask girls to play LF2 with you, i think you use a bandit (the lousiest character) also can kill their julian (the best one lah...). rofl. those who dont know what is LF2 (which is kind of hard), then dont feel insulted... haha

arh.. tml is back to STaR programme stuff with andrew... at the NLB.. we decided to change place man... IMRE is FREAKING far away lar....

not so bad

2005-11-17T09:46:00.000-08:00

today was better... at least i won 2 matches.. however, this time was againts clarissia and (not so good?) IJ girls. lost one singles to a girl though..

apart from the slack training that we have today... i discovered something!!! our dear NJC badminton team captain Tan Wen Hao has become the talking point of ALLLLLLL the IJ girls... thanks to... (dung dung dung dung - drums... CHING!) NICOLE. expectedly.. she went to tell EVERYONE about him. not so bad for the publicity of our captain. but she say wenhao treats his juniros badly lehs.. always thrash us like mad... that is treating juniors badly meh? one more thing that ive discovered... when IJ girls gossip.. they dont really gossip, coz they are SO loud?! that even when im like.. one row of seat away also can hear what are they discussing. unlike NJ girls.. sometimes you stand next to them -stares at doris and jiayi, you also cannot wth they are saying lors.

oh wells.. tml is another day of IMRE and 4.5 hours of court training... tiring, but im happy with this.. haha

SHIt again

2005-11-16T08:30:00.000-08:00

umm... i think these few days are not so shit... but still very shit-ty

going to imre like ALOT of times this week manz... getting worked up here. NJC people are flooding that place coz all of us have a tight schedule in the coming hols. oh wells... me and andrew is kind of doom. coz the resistance has NO corelation with the magnetron sputtering flowrate!! ARH!! and today's presentation was like... only met 35% of mr goh's expectation... DIE! and we only have less than a week to hand in a proposal, a presentation of our project up to the this point and design some new ways of experimenting to get temperature co-efficient.

If there is someone out there that can explain how does the SEM, EDX, XRD works in layman terms.. PLEASE.. SAVE ME!!!

today's training was better than monday's... at least me and jiayi won one and lost one. but we lost to Sec two girls!?!?!?!? wahlau.. we gotta get skirts man. umm.. today wenhao quite off form, think nicole also. then regina was FREAKIN on form man... wah.. whack the ball FREAKIN hard. thank goodness she was against yupei and jiamin... or else.. me and jiayi immediately walk away arh! btw.. think nicole is hating wenhao more and more with every training.. she was like scolding wenhao, "stupid idiot" everytime WH drops a very nice ball to her, which she cannot save. lol

umm... playing with these IJ girls is really tiring man, i was like.. shattered after the training.. and i still need to go tml!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH

SHIT

2005-11-11T07:06:00.000-08:00

umm.. what should i say...

watched Twin Dragon finale ytd night... found that i know some new things from the drama series that lasted for the past two months. the story is not only about CG and martial arts, but about war strategy, love affairs and good vs evil. umm... learnt quite alot especially from the part about good vs evil. but the ending was real touching coz one of the heroes sacrificed his life to revive his partner to live and to witness the work of the king that they saved. i admire such magnanimousness that is beyond life and death.

for now.. set aside about drama series....

currently speaking my life is in total mess/chaos/confusion/shit/ or wadever you can name coz...

screwed up OGL interview (mr tan better not see this)
screwed up training for the past two weeks (lost to girls AGAIN)
quite screwed up in STaR (kind of behind schedule...)
test results.... welll... better not say.. or else my tagboard gonna bao

but the whole point is.. i dont know what to do with all these things... i feel like playing com everyday and slack my life off before school reopens... and... ARGHHHHHHHHHH... orientation camp, and i'll miss it... GREAT... by then, competition is around corner and if i dont improve, im gonna be dead...

IMRE

2005-11-07T00:40:00.000-08:00

at IMRE now doing nothing...

thank goodness they have wireless internet service... or else i would have fallen asleep 2 hours ago.

went for PT this morning... didnt do much though, since the IP1 girls are not here and there are only the six of us. after training, Wenhao briefed us for the coming trainings at the TP hall with the IJ TP girls. and wenhao said: you ppl are going to get their numbers, and Jason, youa re going to get the green-shirt girl's number. i was like... WTH?!?! her number??? she was the one that kept on saving my smashes and smashed like mad on us.... oh dear...

Induction

2005-11-05T09:54:00.000-08:00

umm.. im updating... what should i say.. induction rox!!!

im so proud to be a senior of both 06 and 03. Guess me, wilb, XY and cat share the same sentiments. coz our direct junior class won the most en2 class award!!! and our indirect junior class thrashed the other classes by 100+ points from the games!!! at the end of the day, after packing up, josephians had the J-O-S-E-P-H-S cheer, which rocked the linkway!! beating all the SCGS, CGS cheers =P. never felt so close with juniors before, not in St Mikes, nor in SJI, coz we usually heck about them (unless you are talking about soccer, thats the exception). i look forward to guiding them in the near future. for the time being, we are (scrambling?) to add juniors into our MSN... and freak them out with the workload that we had this year... -evil laughs

Went for training on friday at TP sports hall. gosh, jiayi and i were thrashed by two girls from IJ TP. (15-9, 15-4) OUCH! if im not wrong, their names are nicole and sharon. one of them are freaking good at smashing and saving smashes while the other is damn good at netting and dropping. me and jiayi were laughing all the way coz we kept on making mistakes here and there, i.e. my smashes were going nowhere, while jiayi was running around thanks to the cross drops and cross netting. so we've set an aim for these two coming months of training: we are going to challenge them again (if coach allows us), and make sure we walk away with a better score (at least double digit?). btw.. nicole is jeremy's (sng) nemesis coz she won him before!!! (we feel a bit comforted when we heard this.. haha) there was another girl, more like a tomboy, who is so strong that she lobs the ball one racket distance away from the baseline!!! jiayi nearly got "killed" by her.. haha

next week is gonna be a long week....

SINNER

2005-10-26T02:17:00.000-07:00

umm... i dont want to shatter my record of more than a month of no blogging.. but i have no choice...

Basically... this ass week was a disaster... but the worse is.. in just today, i think three teachers will be disappointed with me...

First up is Mr Eng and Mr Cheng. Gosh.. consistent work for like.. dunno how many times, apparently i only failed one quiz, but this test was really disappointing. i think they expected me to get an A+... but you can say im lazy or wadever...that i never do a single practice of MA1102. BEAT ME!!! and now.. im short of FREAKING 0.1 mark for an A+ !!! i feel like jumping off the building right now. i'm regreting that i never do practice and started to revise only two hours before the test. call this retribution...

Second would be Mrs Fong. i went up to her for marks for the bio station quiz. She told me that i never write control and all that... And she got so pissed when i said that 05 got a higher average than our class. Then she became very defensive and say am i questioning her authority of marking. i know im in no position to contest for marks, and i withdraw myself out of the LT, and mich told me she was crying in the LT. OH MAN... i think im the greatest sinner of all time.... to think that her trusted students thinks that she anyhow marked the paper. All i have to say is, my tone was rather aggressive when i argued for marks, but i was really confused why Ms Tay say can add marks while she say cannot... isnt this a contradiction between the authorities?? i dont know lah... i think i'll have to apologise to her tml.

what lies tml, i dont know... i hope i wont be a sinner and disappoint more people. i hope MA1101 can make my day better tml...

I'm a sinner, and im going to be sinner again

OBS!

2005-09-11T06:18:00.000-07:00

wahahahaha.. im so guai again... never blog for ages. of course.. my record still cant match up with records that are held by some other people in class lah.

umm... after a hectic week 10 of term 3, finally, the "break" came. umm... OBS was fun, but not that what i expect of a camp which cost 240 BUCKS! the fun came in when the guys are treated like the pros of the camp. 5 SJI guys, we know how to cook, we know about orienteering, we know about jungle survival, we know what toilets outdoors look like. yes.. bathing time was the BEST! the whole of guys toilet for just the SEVEN of us! woo... and the water pressure was like spa message! what a nice deserving shower after doing lots of work in the day! haha.. of course, more were expected from the guys. one very good example is re-pitching people's tent in the middle of the night!?!?! Manual labour of course must play a part lah!

for the past two days, my life only had Rise of Nations and Homework. HAHA, no choice lah, OBS right smack in the middle of my hols. how i wished that i can be in camp one... haha.. then can slack continuously for 6 days.

there was a reason for me to change, and one phonecall is enough. but is it a reason or excuse for myself? I dont know...

sometimes, i think a difference between reason and excuse is what is the intention in your mind and how you feel about it... am i right?

cell!!

2005-08-21T02:08:00.000-07:00

wooo... that was a long one and a half week of no blogging. busy as usual. thanks to our cell project. this cell project was not an easy one, given that it cuts across out enrichment week, SPIRE project and national day.

our group started of early just like mich's group, hoping to stand a chance to kick their ass this time round (lol). we had many meetings regarding on the information on both the cell and the singapore's government. between me and kenneth, we had two meetings over dinner only for linking the cell structure with the ministries. after 3 weeks, it was really getting down to business for us as we began working on the posters and kennneth working on the flash. though reg and jia was suppose to be in charge of the posters, i and kenneth also helped out by being manual labors and designing templates. as for my part, i only worked on the model two weeks before deadline. as the deadline was closing... problems arrived. 1. we had problems with the space that we have for the government board 2. joining the two cell boards 3. the cell organelles which is mostly not relative in size and the circuits running everywhere. i think this is the part where team spirit played an important role. even though we each had our own duties, but we tried as much as we can to work as a group to solve problems. one day before our deadline (thurs 3pm), that was the time where a "revolution" occured in the model. we are going to redo all the organelles except for the Rough ER. i thought this was impossible, given that i took such a long time to do the cell myself.

then at the point where i myself was pissed with the weak framework of the cell, miracle occured. three of them miraculously strengthened the whole framework by re-tieing the wires, a new set of wrapping for the cell, make a whole new nuclues, and a funny looking smooth ER with koped straws from the canteen (no offence jia..) all in just one and a half hour when i went down for PT. i was revitalised when i saw those stuff not to mention the cute looking lysosomes.

umm... so i went back home and started work at about 9pm. and thank you reg/kenneth/jia, of all things they packed, they forgot about tape. GREAT, so i had to run all the way to popular to get THREE rolls.

and it was burning midnight oil all the way till 4am. throughout that gruelling 7 hours, people opened convos to support and encourage each other. YES! thats the way 03! even at 3 am, people that were online like doris, jiahui and Xin Yuan (dunno why shes online doing maths at 3am ?!?!)

after 2 hours of sleep, it was a fresh new day with the spectacular and shining model done by the four of us. (to us lah... other groups also v nice)

Here, i would really thank the three of them for making the impossible, possible and being there at the most crucial and critical moment. and also apologies to reg and jiafang regarding some internal affairs... i hope that all of us can get A's. haha. umm.. what about mich's group??

thrash em'

National Day

2005-08-08T09:13:00.000-07:00

wah.. im so guai AGAIN! haha... never blog for some time liaoz...

umm... i have a feeling that im neglecting on SPIRE now. interview not done, survey not finished, progress report.... MR YEO TILL HAVENT READ!!!! seriously... i think he is kind of scary one leh. i dont think that there is a mentor that will just heck care about the mentee's progress report.. wahahahahaha.

saturday was a long day. had group meeting in the morning. i dont think we are even 50% done. but nvm, JIAYOH PPL!!! im looking at the cell model and i think there is fire on my pants now... very worried that i cant finish the cell on time.. haha

then went back to school do ushering for our future potential juniors. ummm... seriously i think most of them are VERY CHEERFUL and positive thinking people. many of them are so fun to talk with! haha. especially those that are from dunman high. man, they changed my perception of them as SOLID chinese muggers... haha. i still rmb that there is one June Fong... wahahahahahaha... even mrs fong knows that there is such a girl around.

went to watch dim sum dollies with the IP level. man... it was damn farnie. laugh my ass off arh. i like that part about zhang ziyi only knows how to say "the soup is too salty!"... lol, i nearly laughed off my chair. as for the sick part... the LorMaiGais and the Sperm donation was very sick, but funny too! haha (now i know why someone said that it was REALLY SICK). went home at about 12 mn. worked until 3 plus then sleep.

went out to do survey ytd lorh... man.. me,yuchen and simin only manage to do about 40 surveys in 3 hours... very shi bai leh... hope for better results on this coming saturday.

today was CIP DAY! haha.. not funny, went to bring some zhenghua pri sch kids around bukit timah. GOSH! they were sooooooooooo restless lah. now i know why teachers dont like me when i was young.. haha. especially the guys lah, they like to talk back to us alot... hahaha. nvm, they are just kids. better learn to be like jiafang, eat the kids up! haha. went to LT5 after the bringing the kids around. managed to catch the WD hiphop, Malay dance and Indian dance performances. (i shall not talk more about this.. XD)

went out wif badminton seniors to Lido to get tix. haha.. saw MD ppl there too. haha... sort of shamelessly (yes, VERY shamelessly of me) went up to say hi... lol. talk with weet for a few mintues and told them about the situation at lido ticket office. then we went to taka for lunch. came back at about 4 plus and slept on the sofa till 630 and bathe to eat dinner...

the soup is too salty

ECP

2005-07-30T08:45:00.000-07:00

enrichment week is ending... school is starting... homework will be assigned, assignmments will take the hell out of me again. i still have IH essay, bio 1107 and maths graphs not done (partly becoz i was feeling sian after doing so many questions). -stares at the pile of paper on my table

enrichment week ended at ECP ytd. haha.. obviously, our kite... never fly. but i think the mini-mees are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!! thank you wendy AWWWWWWWWW!!! after trying a few times, i just went away to play soccer with kenneth and some other ip year one guys. my team won 5-1. it was a THRASHING!!! haha. and many thanks for those who supported me (like as if there was anyone.. haha). sheeeesh... there is a hole at my three-quarters. mom is gonna kill me. as for the three categories, only one was won by IP year one. obviously, xinyuan's group from 05 (also known as PG... dunno.. heard from ben one) with super jian.. or smart tactics, by tying two balloons to their kite and won the longest flying kite. umm.. wonder why no one threw a rock at the balloon??? we should have done that too... haha. after all, we are the SUPER KITE MAKERS!!!!!

generally, i found enrichment week very FUNNNNNNNNNNN. i feel... enriched... lol. i think the most unforgetable ones are KTV, Science Centre (ahems) and Kite flying (even though i never fly the kite...) surely, i would look forward to next year's enrichment week, which will also be our last.

i still havent touch on SPIRE... die lah...

enriched

SABO

2005-07-25T06:06:00.000-07:00

im so proud of myself man... never blog for like.. ONE WEEK!!!! this is an achievement.. haha

so another week of enrichment have passed. man.. i find KTV so funnnnnnnnn!!! who cares if we go off tune? becoz the rest of the ppl in the room will also go off tune with you!!!! so fun isnt it? whats more, we get a bonus. we get to see teachers singing. i saw 孙老师 singing.. wonder why not Jolin Tsai's songs?? haha. Ms Koh singing some lollilop song. damn spastic sia!!! Mr Eng sang 七里香!!! not bad leh.. wonder why his wife doesnt like him sing :( of course not to forget mr tan singing 光良，童话 and 王力宏，唯一. not bad too. wonder why Sun Laoshi says his singing cannot represent NJ... lol. I had a duet with Mr Tan on 优客李林，认错。 though both of us went out of tune at the end, we loved it man. haha. there was also a pool match between Mr Eng/Ms Koh and representatives of IP03. Mr Eng finished us with a superb reflecting shot of the black ball in the middle pocket. we nearly fainted after that shot. the part continued till 7pm that day, i left early singing my last song, Tension's 感情线, Better known as She's The One. We all had a nice time but with the bill of 96 bucks!?!?!?! haha. K-Ster will love us.

umm.. what else was nice??

haha.. then there was today. where i had the greatest sabo of the century man. alot of 03-ers went to science centre today. so we had some warm up chemical reactions lecture. it was damn cool. not to mention the aircon in the bio lab was cool too.. haha. the greatest sabo started off with me being volunteered as a volunteer to hold a towel of some sort. quite fun actually. and some ppl began to conspire and mr PHUA ZHIRONG sat at my place with kenneth, KS's and zhirong's bag on where zhirong originally seated. that is becoz the seat next to XiaoYing was empty. So from this part onwards... everyone should know what happened. when i turned back to my seat. i know im dead with zhirong on my seat. then people began to shout out and ask me to sit at that DESIGNATED spot. then some ppl began clapping and those who dont know what happened, just looked at me, XiaoYing and that gang of ppl. and they started clapping also. my bag was thrown out to me and i have no choice (or they thought i wanted to...) but to sit next to XiaoYing. when she saw me, she was like looking back towards ernest, KS, zhirong and kenneth goh.. for their "good deed". and obviously... annoyed right?

but the rest of the day was fun especially with lunch at Macs when jolynn told us she was curious about the "exothermic reaction". so all the 03-ers together with Maricelle thought: be our guest... wahhahahahaha. she got tricked and she screamed so loud that the whole macs stared at her for 3 seconds... ROFL!!! damn fun sia. this is the good side of IP. never ending fun when dont need to care about work.

came home by MRT together with xinyuan, jolynn and another of xinyuan's friend (haha.. i dont know her name. sad case). we talked lots about school stuff and our ex-school's life. quite fun talking with ppl not from 03. at the same times, i also learnt more about other classes. it was a nice chat with them lah.

i shall try not to blog so much nowadays.. to prove that im HARDWORKING... lol. no lah.. i just had nothing to write.. so dont write lor.

let's reach out for the skies (ppl will love this song. lol)

Fantastic four

2005-07-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

after 40 mins, think i have finish sending out all the sms to notify ppl that my number has been changed to 97874239. SMS me more, as i have 1000 outgoing sms's. haha.

watched fantastic four just now, man.. it was FANTASTIC. haha. guess i ran out of vocab for describing it. but yea, it was fantastic lah. lol. it seems that these superhero films always like to set ppl mind's to fantasize. cant you imagine you can just burn all your notes if you are the human torch? or be like mr fantastic and get your stuff that is locked in your class? perhaps being invisible is better as you can sneak behind wilbert and listen to what he is gossiping about. if it is about you, then be like THE THING and just throw him out of the window?!?!

haha. if i have to choice to be one of them, i think would chose to be mr fantastic. not becoz that there is a sexy female lead?!?! haha. i think he is just like me, a "mugger". HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. okay.. not funny. but come to think of it, he was thinking so straight that he needs to calculated everything down to the smallest detail. even calculated risk becomes no risk for him. okay, i can't do that...

so that caused his breakup with his gf at first. perhaps Sue Storm was right... Love doesnt need thinking, no variables, not like maths, it is the easiest thing to understand. yea.. easier than understanding all those SPDF orbitals, lol.

of course, apart from the romantic parts, of course there are action parts right? i like that chemistry 101 joke. so btw, chemistry 101, what happens when a hot metal is cooled down in a very short time? seriously.. i dont know.. haha. dont ask why either.

well the ending, of course, a happy ending. but try to imagine kissing an invisible girl.... so overall, i give it 7.5 / 10.

no more thinking, no more variables

so close

2005-07-14T09:38:00.000-07:00

umm.. nothing much special today.. except that i experienced the power of fate and destiny.

i just received a call from a friend that is from HK currently in singapore now. some time ago, she sent me an email telling me that she is going to come to singapore for an international banf fair. sort of like a exposure trip for her. so i replied her with my home and hp contacts. she didn't clearly stated out in the email which day she would arrive, so i just waited for her call. and the call came...

during the conversation, she told me lots about singapore, like where they went for sightseeing and blah... then i asked, you cant be playing during your whole stay in singapore right? to my astonishment, she replied, "yeah, i was attached to NYGH for a few days." at that moment, i was like... umm.. why didnt i try to find her first, why didnt she call me earlier, so that i can get to have a chance to show her NJ HOSPITALITY?

so it seems to be fate. i told my mom (yes, my mom knows her), then she just said.. this is life, where even the smallest chance of something not happening, it might just occur, against all odds. perhaps, what we lacked was just "0.00000000000001 ml" of affinity. perhaps we walked pass each other without knowing...

life is just so unpredictable

mercury, VENUS, earth, mars (there is some secret here)

renaissance

2005-07-09T08:17:00.000-07:00

dont talk about ytd... think i flunk the test that i took ytd. before you ppl come and bash me up, i was talking about IMRE test, not maths test. as usual, the IP spirit was withing me when i was trying to revise the thick stack of notes within a few hours. and as usual, things go the wrong way. haha

today was quite a long day. went to school to do the painting for ther serviette handcraft. went to KAP for lunch. then met up with ben, simin and frank to do SPIRE. it seems that with ben around... we got MORE IDEAS. umm, well im still wondering whether his survey works... but nvm. anw, he was talking about my survey being long-winded and blah blah blah. not to mention that he insulted me by saying im doing this for the first time. i was like... WTF?!?! then, our dear smart ben went downstairs to take a brochure of some sort and showed me how good it was. given that it doesnt have any open-ended questions. then i was thinking... yeah.. wuite true, 20 questions with 6 choices. i looked at the front page. SURPRISINGLY, i saw : NKF health screening REGISTRATION FORM. get the idea now?!?! sometimes, we can be quite irrelevant with our actions.. haha

did the crafty laura assignment with kenneth... and now mr tan is giving us some problems.. haha

went to watch SJI renaissance. man, IT ROCKS to the core. haha. as usual, lots of girls came to support their friend, half-bf or bf. and of course, not to mention that many of them are "overdressed", quoted from my ex-classmate, Jeremy Huang. assumingly, that means around 30% wear skirts that were so low that it can never be seen at NJ staircases. but of course, there were some that were very grand, elegant.. and blah... goes down the list. nvm, i shall skip about the girls part.

before the concert started, we realised that we got an extra ticket as one of ben's (most probably a guy) friend can't attend at the last minute. so the four of us, ben, zhirong, justin and me, tried finding someone to come and not to waste the ticket. surprisingly, with the four of us, we cant even find someone to come! haha. ben and zhirong tried looking for Xin Yuan, coz she lives quite near to SJI. but of course, it was so rush that she denied the offer. then we joked that if we see her friend S***** N*, then we will beat him up for her... haha. jkjk.

i think this renaissance was a very memorable one as the former conductor, mr lester lim is stepping down and another new conductor is taking over him. so many of the alumni band members, together with the current military band and the junior band performed well and gave their best shot as a tribute to him. the last piece was his fav song, lao shu ai da mi. the alumni responded by giving him three packets of rice and a big mickey mouse. the school acknowledged his 8 years of service in SJI military band by giving him a plaque as a token of appreciation.

the night ended with a high note when the all the boys in the performing arts theatre sang the school rally, alma-mater and the JOSEPHS cheer. or i should say.. the night ended the SJI way. i thought that i would forget about the lyrics at first, but when the band played the music, the words just came out of my mouth. with no second thoughts, just like a reflex action. once a josephian, always a josephian. it seems that it is in our blood.

counting down to renaissance 2006

GPA

2005-07-06T04:17:00.000-07:00

umm... ytd was not very nice...

went to IMRE almost the whole day. and it seems that everyone began to get caught with the veronica-phobia. the feeling was.. the moment she came into the room, all of us will just stare at each other and do nothing but laugh bitterly. (knowing that with her around, we cant be dismissed on time)

rushed back to school for badminton and found that there is NO BADMINTON training. i was like WTH...i brought the training stuff all the way to IMRE and back, and you tell me no training?!?!!?!?!? btw... ppl.. PLEASE join badminton intra-school competitions. $5 per pax for any category.

received GPA this morning. and to doris' delight... it SUX to the core.. yes.. the inner core. not the outer core, lower mantle, upper mantle, asthenosphere or the crust. you know.. there are imaginary lines call discontinuity that separates things apart?? haha. i shall not say my GPA here.. or else ppl will throw their com out of the window.. either they think i got too high... or somehow i got lower than them.

went to CHAOS finals today. i would like to extend my congratulations to MaeYue, Phoebe, Shaomin and Meishan. they did the school proud be clinching second. credits to meishan as well.. or else i think the whole answer of mine will be wrong. presentation wise, they beat all the schools. perhaps raffles team 1 got a better written report.. so we have nothing to say. but meishan insists on seeing the champion team's report as she claims that something is RIDICULOUS in their answers. oh wells... but as for the junior team, we gained lots of valuable experience, as well as pressure to take part next year. what we saw today was our seniors work which is 10 times better than ours. so we must buck up and bring the glory back to the school again next year

this is the only situation where CHAOS is fun
but always remember that there is an order in chaos no matter how chaotic it is

enrichment week

2005-07-01T02:28:00.000-07:00

umm.. what should i say? Mak Mei Keen.. the most popular girl in NJ IP since wednesday 4:40pm. man... i think she is crazy. not saying that she is mentally retarded (btw... heard she is a GP-er). but she was like there at 4:40pm.. which is like VERY KS to many ppl. to me... i was there at 5+... which is playing the game fair lah. i pity those that werent around to sign up... but at the same time... i think there is an element of "first come first serve" basis. this situation to a certain extent is inevitable. imagine if everyone logs on to KM at 5... there will be heavy traffic.

ytd's maths quiz was totally a disappointment. i took 15 mins to prove that stupid identity. -looks at mr tan. then came the careless mistake that makes me loose at least 4 marks. to a certain extent, im very angry at myself man. i think i finished 70% of the questions in the add math book.. still i cant get a 15/15. perhaps... aiyah.. i dont know lah.

after that was quite a slack IH lesson, becoz mr ho was running between two classes... so no choice lah. btw, he clocked our newest record of being dismissed before 11:40am. that record was held by our recently left mrs tan ngee thiang... becoz it so happens that mr goh wasnt around, so she was the one that dismissed us that day. current record stands at 11:37 am (clocked by my watch)

went to see mr yeo after lunch... man.. he was reading our proposal right before we went to see him. THANK GOODNESS we looked for him.. or else we have been dead long ago. basicly, our idea is there, but we need to put more elaboration and points in our respective sections of the proposal. so that means the weekend is gone for sure.

waited ALL THE WAY to 5 for badminton training. man... i seriously lost form sia. cant even lob a ball nicely. it was a small training conducted by the new exco, so take it as a milestone of some sort.

today was quite okay lah... started with mrs tan's MI lesson. i think i managed to get her this time. think i can survive this module. anw, there was a good news and a bad news that followed up. good news is, being the PURE higher chinese class in the level, we will no longer be splitted up for HCL, isnt that GREAT? save all the trouble frlom jumping classes. bad news is.. no GPA, that means.. another weekend of agony and sleepless nights. haha, no that serious lah.

then we went for SPA. (i forgot to bring my swimming trunks?!?! lol) think im certified dead... haha. i got the cell concentration of 1.1M sucrose. everyone got 2+. think i should have changed the answers (which i initially did, but loyalty with integrity!!! haha, but lame~).

man.. im tired and battered after one week. think this is the process of getting changing back to school-day-mode... haha. i wish the rest good luck haha. still got another 1000 word chinese essay over the weekend.

clay goddess crossing the river
(those in the canteen when i was having lunch will know)

three days

2005-06-29T01:42:00.000-07:00

umm... in a flash, school reopened for three days already. seems that im back to school mode now.

it seems that there is this invisible wave that swept into 05IP03.

it changed people's attitudes. towards me, towards learning and towards new teachers (learning environment).

i felt that the class began to split very clearly into groups now. i felt very pissed in school yesterday. for one reason or the another. as i came home half dead, battered and torn. i just felt like sleeping and shutting myself from the world around me. and when the moment i did this, i pissed my father off. all i want is to give myself a BREAK from all the day's stress and coughing. but all he wants is my uniform and to get it washed early so that he can enjoy himself in front of the com at night listening to his favourite radio programmes. i just dont know why he can get pissed with me so easily since the start of the year. every 3 months we will have a big quarrel and we simply shut our doors on each other. oh wells...i shan't talk too much. or else ppl think i have family problems.

so with no mood of doing anything... i just closed my room's doors and slept. that results to me cheonging to revise maths tonight.

i cant find my sec one geography notes!! they are my blood and soul for geography exams last year, and with them gone... i need to make my own notes all over again... ARGH!!!

today was a bit better. but still someone (sitting close to me) is getting on my nerves?!?!?! argh!!! but i just find that class isnt that lively anymore. not like the vibrant class that we were last time. even the once nonsensical wilbert does not talk that much anymore.

whenever i say something... there would ought to be ppl against me. i feel so bad... like as if im making our lives worse when i say that there is a class blog in existence. THIS IS THE INTERNET! ppl have freedom to look for our blog what. if she really wants to know, im sure she will find out just like the way mr ho found our class blog.

but the way home was better... though i didnt caught up with some ppl*, but i joined the IP05-ers home. actually, i didnt even know all their names. all i know is Jess and Xinyuan. haha.. becoz one WAS with Jiayi and the other is in my chinese class... haha. talking with them is different with talking to 03-ers. perhaps they dont really know what happens in my class and hence we discuss things on a wider picture.

to be continued.. dinner time...

Last Day

2005-06-26T07:21:00.000-07:00

man... this is a countdown to the END of my holidays... 1 hour 38mins.

what a sad way to end it

umm... should i be excited of the new semester or worry for myself? lets take a look at the pros and the cons

-Cons (bitter then sweet)
*LOTS?!?!?! of homework / assignments / projects
*exceed like HELL for phonebills
*no more tutor liao.. so NO SLACKING in class
*no more sleep... yes that means back to those 1,2 am days

-Pros
*Can get to see IP03. yes everyone... i miss you ppl. (a bit cold here)
*Enrichment week!!!!
*can ask simin for songs... haha
*badminton trainings! not to mention the upcoming intra school competition
*can get to see which "newbie" teacher gonna teach us (maybe bad)

so based on the above analysis... perhaps school should reopen, but as students, we pay the price of stress...

describe my holidays? two words: too short

NBA Finals

2005-06-24T09:43:00.000-07:00

damn it... SA SPURS won it... sighs. think Pistons should have win it. They put in much more effort, but just becoz luck was on the side of Spurs. not to mention Robert Horry's life saving 3 pointers.

had dinner at the no signboard restaurant. though there were only me, my father and my grandmother, we had a very sumptuous meal. but no chilli crab for me... since my sore throat is still a bit bad (after the bbq wings... haha).

watch Initial D ytd. VERY NICE, VERY COOL!!! though Jay Chou's acting skills isnt THAT good, but he is cool enough to fit into the role of Takumi Fujiwara. think ppl are going crazy over his "tofu" car. haha. AE86 rocks sia... just a normal car... that can go faster than a GTR?!?!?! with no water spilled out of the cup?? man, that's a blast. shawn yu and edison chen were equally cool, esp shawn yu with that moustache. he looks much more mature with that look. anyways... came out of the theatre with some arm pain. perhaps im not used to having a girl sitting at the right of me. (i cant put my right arm on the arm rest for the whole movie) thats my watch-movie post... it seems that i can't shake it off. but still better than the guy sitting next to kenneth. he kept on talking about what is about to happen, like he wants to show off in front of his friends. I pay $8 not to listen to him lor. overall, i still enjoyed the movie very much. i'll give it a 7.5 / 10.

initial D initialises

class outing

2005-06-22T08:42:00.000-07:00

todays class outing was quite fun lah... though there was not much ppl. only got abouy 10 of us. and some left before the bbq started. we started off with lunch together a bedok. after lunch, we went to east coast park for some fun first. while having lunch and the way to East coast park, some funny things are worth being mentioned here... hehe

Why ben is always the last person to go offline? he just seem to online the whole night... that is becoz every 2 hours, he get a cup of coffee.

Wilbert say he was very economical with his spendings during his holidays. that includes his S$1 haircut, cheap movies at the cinema, and lots of T-shirts. then we asked, did he swam to indonesia and swam back to singapore?

ben asked me for my june break bonanza. then i said, IN A WAY, it should be in my bag. but i KIND/SORT OF forgot about it.

Kenneth thinks that our school canteen should have aircon. then KS said, "YEAH! like our canteen in ACSI. it has TV too!". then i said, "do they show cartoon network?"

hahahas... anyways, class outing was really fun. when we arrived at ECP, i and KS rented 2 bikes while wilb, weet and doris got roller-blades. Ben and kenneth decide to walk to the bbq pit. i turned out that me and KS reached there first, followed by kenneth and ben. then i was wondering, where was weet and doris? then KS told me that their avg speed was slower than walking speed.

played some soccer. ben was doing his break dance style of soccer. wonder what will happen if he does that in front of Jerzy Dudek. who would laugh at who? went cycling with KS. then when we came back, we went to return the blades and the bikes and went for bowling. after bowling then we started BBQ. took quite some time to build a nice fire for the chicken wings... it turned out to be very nice!

we cleared up everything and walked all the way to long beach to hail taxi home.

wooooooo! tml going to watch INITIAL D!!!! haha... guess i wont be as crazy as weet. he nearly fall in love with the Jay Chou poster at the bus stop. lol

initial ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ

sore throat

2005-06-21T19:13:00.000-07:00

feeling better today, but my throat still have lots of phelgm. felt quite uneasy when i slept last night.

decided not to go to IMRE today. neither did i went to help kenneth with the food. need plenty of rest. my father didnt let me out either...

feel damn sian at home. sleep until i dont want to sleep anymore. but what can i do besides sleeping in this half dead condition? umm... seems that im very much slacking now. haven't do chinese report, survey questions, revision for maths test and 1104 practical.

since i have nothing better to do, i decided to do SPIRE research. now under that file of internet websites... i think there is about 30+ websites. hopefully we will have enough time to analyse all of them.

dinner's ready...

sore throat

2005-06-19T19:18:00.000-07:00

just had breakfast in a half dead condition.

umm.. i still haven't do chinese book review yet. HOW?!?!?! think im seriously in big trouble. becoz in this condition, my mind is so blank. all i can do is slack maybe play com. but still my skills weren't that good all of a sudden. seems that i have temporarily lost my form in playing starwars galactic battlegrounds.

the magnetron sputtering machine is still not fixed. think im not going to IMRE tml as well. if not i dont think i can make it for wednesday's bbq. ~i'm praying hard here.

NBA finals fifth game man. spurs currently winning by one point.. tight one. i hope that pistons will win. better than spurs winning. i support any team that can beat spurs man... lol

half dead, half alive

TTHS

2005-06-18T17:33:00.000-07:00

good morning to me...

im blogging quite early today. or not so early, since i woke up at 4am. got a high fever and Tan Tock Seng is the straight destination. my body was so hot at 39.3 degrees... try frying an egg on my forehead. had an injection and panadol and 4 hours of grueling sleep. since they have no pillows on the bed, its quite hard to sleep or rest properly. i wasnt as pathetic as jiafang, as she mentioned so in her blog. thought of some people and consequences if i really had appendictis, but thank goodness its not. after 4 hours, fever is gone, no more stomach aches, and off i go home.

think im going to do SPIRE now...

IMRE

2005-06-16T20:19:00.000-07:00

haha... very bored here at IMRE now...

the stupid magnetron sputtering machine's air pump suddenly lost its abilty to ventilate air out of the main chamber to make it vacuum. Came all the way here, then Dr Liu called me telling that machine is down. :(

anyways, our project on surface is quite cheem. but it all boils down to lots of experiments done on many samples by a few machines. shall not go too deep. or else some ppl might feel insulted

me and andrew met our mentors yesterday. Dr Liu Hong, from the name you can tell... from china. and Dr Suman, whose voice is so soft that both of us need hearing aids to listen to what he is saying. i think a dropping a pin on marble floor is even louder than his voice at times.

next week will be so activity packed that i dont even know whether i have time to do the chinese book review. man.. 800 words leh. together with the 200 word intro, that is 1000 words. double the amount of words that we are writing for a normal compo on class. oh wells. play first then talk lah. haha. next week monday and tuesday also need to come back to IMRE for some course on safety in labs. then wednesday got class outing. PPL, I APPEAL TO 03-ers out there to make it for this event, coz i think we should enjoy the holiday together as a class before it ends. thursday watching initial D man... going to see shuai guy Jay Chou in his first "blockbuster" movie... hehe. anyone interested can join me. more the merrier. but im wondering how are we going to get tix as it is the first day of showing...

holidays began to end

week 3

2005-06-15T06:27:00.000-07:00

Finally the bill arrived.

and it created a "career high". this month's bill exceeded by 50 bucks. that implies next week's allowance is gone for sure. and this is very obvious because last month, we had about 6 projects. Not to mention the food fair project, that caused about an estimation of $15 out of the $50 exceeded. anyways, Project = phonecalls and SMS. so that is one big DISADVANTAGE that i get from getting group projects.

i think many of us in class also exceed phonebills. i think my father is going to drive me crazy. he thinks that as a class, we should think of some communication system to cut down our phone bills, for the benefit of our own allowances. in cheem terms, that means we should start a case study. (too bad that we handed in our SPIRE research proposal.) because from his logical reasoning. at my rate of exceeding the phone bill, the class would be paying about $1000+ to either starhub, M1 or Singtel. that is about twice the class pay to the school for school fees. and thank goodness our school is an independent school. if not, our principal can say that all of us are rich kids and majority won't be affected by an increament of school fees. -shall not go on further-

anyone out there hasn't watch mr and mrs smith. i feel so lonely. lol. everyone watched mr and mrs smith liao. not fun to watch alone. so anyone free these coming days to hang out and watch the movie?? PLEASE. this sounds so like begging...

tml going to IMRE and check out the place there and meet my mentor. Sighs... im not partnering clemence. shall not force him to partner me. anyways, im going to partner this guy called andrew in IP02 i think. Hope this is a change for good...

Locked and Loaded

Three days

2005-06-10T08:48:00.000-07:00

Man.. this is gonna be a long post.

let's start with wednesday. Oh man, DOLPHIN BAY ROCKS!!!! the ending was perfect. i give the ending 9.5 / 10. you ppl just missed the whole thing. though it is a pity that shan-ni still died, but her last wishes was fulfilled in a very nice way. the show kicked of with the concert of TianBian (lead actress) with his special/ surpise guest (ex-rivals), Manqing. Then when the concert ended, the fate of XiaoGang and Manqing was revealed. of course, they were back together. how they "reconciled" was really touching. All along, their relationship seemed to be like a race for XiaoGang in a search for Manqing, when he feels "lost". however, Manqing was all along chasing behind him, but he just didn't realise that. But when he was told that she was feeling tired of all this "chasing" (which includes lots of care and concerns lah), he finally realised. He chased after her and told her that she is the first woman ever to make him turn back. Man... this is really touching. perhaps it is becoz the analogy used fits the whole thing just like a jigsaw puzzle. How Zeya and TianBian was back together was more or less like a history playback of the first episode where Zeya missed her but that small little chance. But twenty years later, he did not make the same mistake and stopped to car to see her.

Though the drama series was bit of "soap" and emotional one, but we got lots to learn. haha.. perhaps the analogy or metaphores (wadever you call that), we can use it is chinese compo. think im fantasizing now. lol

Then it was badminton training. I think this is the first time in year 2005 that we can use ALL FOUR COURTS. thanks to no malay dance and CO (usually produces noise). haha. and after everything, it was the EXCO handover or investiture (anything lah..). A bit sad as the 2004-2005 exco is stepping down. think they really did a very good job. so many thanks to Andy, Chermaine, ChiWah, Tonghai and Timothy. before they stepped down, they played this 6 mins video, very innovative and touching as it recalled our memories during competitions, trainings and the badminton camp. we'll miss them for sure. trainings will be different without them. i wish the new EXCO will do a better job and push NJ Badmt to a higher level, not only in national schools competition.

Then came today. long day sia. it was from 9 am to 12 mdn. it started of with a STaR workshop on Fourier Transform Infra-Red Spectroscopy. Man... think i only understand 20% of the whole thing. apart from that i'm just noding my head, telling myself that these stuff SHOULD stick in my retarded mode brains. shall not go too deep. went to J8 to have lunch with Cat and co. haha, i got free lunch for some purpose that i can't say. Or else there will be ppl that come after me. we rushed back to school and had this extra maths lesson with Mr Tan. 2 hours man. somehow still can pull through. found i had lots of careless mistakes. And Mr Tan is worrying for me, haha.

Then i and kenneth got changed and went out to takka for dinner. bought some cheap food and went for some window shopping after dinner. then we took MRT to Kallang and watch PCK musical. Free Tix man. apart from the show, i think we enjoyed the most was the nice air-con (when we first got in) and admiring the 'I not stupid' cast people (perhaps some were girlfriends, normal friends lah). Man.. they took 12 A seats (which sells at 100 bucks per seat). That is ~$1200~. imagine that amount. anyways, i think the show was OK, i'll give it a 7/10. i think there was a big discount as they weren't professional singers, hence with comparison with plays like MaMa Mia.. they are very far off. but the special thing was definitely the element of creative lyrics with a mixture of colloquial languages. The song that i liked the most is the last song sung by PCK. Very meaningful one, it can be applied to lots of situations. perhaps kenneth might get what i'm saying.

then it was home sweet home. with beautiful memories.

don't pray pray... don't pray? how to pass maths quiz?

week 2

2005-06-08T01:21:00.000-07:00

oh man, this week is still okay larh. at least not too much of homework. think i'm only at 15% working condition (100% will be mugging from 8pm to 3am). i started to do maths tutorials on monday night. if im not wrong 12 midnight. was feeling a bit guilty after playin 3 hours of com games. i did until like 3 am. i just dont believe that stupid question 6e would take me like... 45 mins. and my brain just went dead and i gave up on that thin sheet of paper. woke up at 9+ to have a small breakfast and went for training at 12. gosh. i missed trainings. though it was very tiring becoz i didnt bring water and those stupid vending machines just fell out with me. finished training with 70% of my body shattered.

went to plaza sing with KS, Maye and doris to watch Monster in Law. had some spaghetti and a sugar cane with lime. then we rushed into the "frigde"-ed theatre. monster in law was okay lar... i give it 2.5 stars. after i came out. my stomach is at war with me. initially, me and KS wanted to go cinne to watch reg perform, then maybe we eat. but halfway, i just cant take it... so both of us went to some hawker centre next to meridian. had kuay teow noodle soup. then we carried on with our journey to cine. by the time we reached there, reg performance was over... haha.. too bad for us lah. reg might be happy as she didnt want us to go see her perform. she was like WARNING me not to go. lol. and after that, i fly cab home and straight into the toilet. (details shall be censored).

A bit guilty again, so i turned to my UNFINISHED tutorials and WOOOOOOOOOW, it took me only 10 mins to finish the whole BLARDIE question 6e. and from there i realised that i should have slept at 2 am that night. apart from that. the rest were Q.E.D lah... lol. but still i clocked a time of FREAKIN 5 hours on one damn tutorial. feel like killing mr tan or whoever that set that freakin difficult tutorial.

Quite Easily Done. Me or the Tutorials?

not sian??

2005-06-05T10:56:00.000-07:00

umm... think i will not be feeling that sian for the coming 3 weeks. after a whole week of camps and playing, finally, homework began to hit my head. and from now onwards, i will have no tutor. So im taking on this battle alone. no help. so more or less, i wont do so well. and my parents are coming after me for my strategy for the coming semester. most probably, they expect me to hand up a proposal to improve my chinese, LA as well as coping with STaR (btw, im partnering clemence for IMRE attachment)and no tutor situations. oh man, this is killing me. so i have no choice, but to come up with a to do list for the coming three weeks, that is spent to mugging?!?!?!?!!?!?

-SPIRE research
-Math tutorials
-June Break Bonanza
-Filing (lots manz... i have like... 6 inches thick of notes...)
-chinese book review
-prepare for next term's maths syllabus
-FINISH 1 english and 2 chinese book on the shelf

see the emphasis on the the word FINISH. that means ur friend here hasnt touch them for AGES and Lightyears. anyway, think i'll be facing a crisis next term. hope i can SURVIVE...

somehow, my mom "accessed my finances" for the month. and for some very GOOD reason (i'll wont be in sch for lunch for five days everyweek), she decides to cut my allowance from $50 to $15. that is... 70% cut. man, this is worse than job retrenchment. lol. jkjk

Who will be the last survivor??

Sianzzzz

2005-06-03T08:35:00.000-07:00

Oh man, i feel damn sian for these 2 days. no sch, no training. all i did was play, eat and shit. apart from doing june break bonanza, not a very nice holiday package. lol. i was flipping through my notes while doing them. i think my brain is a bit retarded during holidays. all those maths problems are attacking my stupid brain. hehe. still got tutorials and chinese book review havent do yet.

But there is one good thing that im not sian. SLEEP!!!! now i truly understand the meaning of holidays. it is truly a BREAK for goodness sake. all those CNY, Good friday, labour day, Vesak day, are just working days with extra hours. June hols are REAL. get it? REAL, TRUE. try poking your arms, and you find that you are not dreaming but this is a reality. you are sleeping from 12 all the way to 10 in the morning. (im sure that there are ppl that wake up after 12 noon) no alarms, no sch bell.

sighs. i think this happens to everyone. in the midst of all those happiness, joy and laughter, often we have this small little room in our heart that is causing some sense of bad, guilt and disappointment. It seems hard to enjoy things fully. Even if i bought a new OP sling bag today. i only felt that money went out of my wallet. nothing much. no excitement at all. after i win in a com game, there is also no sense of achievement.

i began to miss 03. Yes Everyone. i miss the togetherness we all had. for the past six months. we endured hell lot of hardship, sleepless nights, food from KAP, the times where we are at oasis revising for exams, copying each other's maths tutorials at the canteen tables. i miss all these times, although they are all about work, assignments and projects, not to mention our GPA. IRONICALLY, i miss school. sounds funny for a "mugger" like me?

stay together, we must

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2005-03-31T06:02:00.000-08:00

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