Saturday, July 14, 2007
Forget about the expected results. those are the most unrealistic scores that i can never imagine myself getting. After a C for maths and D for chem, and most probably a U for econs... this is really reality check man.
After one week of enrichment, we finally find ourselves being thrown back into the dreadful, tormenting and stressful life of a student. Getting Cs and Ds is never what I expect, I mean... after getting As and Bs, the sentiments of Cs and Ds is never sweet. Even when i had only one week to revise, even when i can tell myself that i had attachment programme during the june hols, even when i have all the reason in the world to fail all my common tests, failing is never a good feeling. failing should not be the option. U just feel that you didn't do yourself justice by studying more when you know that you could have squeeze some time out here and there to revise that page of notes for another time. it's just not good enough. you know your potential is far greater than just Cs and Ds, but u just can't stop getting it.
I feel so embarrassed and ashame of myself when Mr Chee particularly said that the person whom he spent 2 hours of consultation with couldn't even do that trigo question which he went through. this is not a joke, it's not about looking at other people's girl, it's not looking and studying hard enough. I feel so bad. The worse thing is, Mr Chee and Ms Ng are swapping classes! I don't think i shall say it here, but i guess all of us can expect what will happen after the change. And now, I'm in Mr Teo's class, with the least 03ers, hope i can cope well over there. I think Mr chee wants to send me to a tutor which forces his students to do his work, just like Mr Teo.
Went back to school today and i regreted going for the sexuality workshop. I had the choice of going to ubin and cycle (since i had paid for it), went to EDB for the talk or stayed at home to sleep. I was thinking of a reason to stay during the workshop and i was wondering WHY i was there. I was informed last minute and that is bloody unfair to me! I know this is compulsory, but it doesn't make sense to let the me know like 12 hours before the actual event. I could have planned for alternatives to solve my enrichment (cycling @ ubin) problem. Mr Irwan said i might not even get back my $20 since i only notified him this morning. What am i forgoing? It's more than $20. I wanted to go to ubin for a mini-retreat and enjoy the scenery there,I missed OBS so much! talk about opportunity costs here leh. i walked up to mr loh and told him honestly that if he wasnt the teacher ic for this workshop, i would have just pon.
So the floorball nationals finally arrived and our guys team had already lost 3 matches. I guess, we just didn't train enough and we aren't experienced enough as well. we were like being ripped apart by other JC's teams. As the match secretary, i feel so hopeless, i felt that i could have gone on court to make things better for my power-line. on the bright side, we've managed to score the first goal of the season (after conceding 25). it was a power shot made from a position near the halfway line. The MJ girl who was the other match official was like,"wah, not bad leh, can score from that distance. actually, i think you guys improved a lot already, given that you are in the A div for the first year". well, consider that as consolation words, but the team will appreciate the kind intentions. but still, we are just not good enough...
looking back, i realised that all the CCAs that i had joined so far are never the achieving CCAs. i was in swimming and scouts when i was in pri school. swimming again in SJI. then badminton and floorball here in NJ. None of my CCAs were high achieving ones.
Read, You Must...3:57 AM