Thursday, June 28, 2007
CT's are over, shall reward myself by writing a post here. haha.
Expected Results:
Bio - B
Chem - B
Maths - C
Econs - S
GP - C
So how do you feel if you go to a war unprepared?
how do you feel if you walk onto the badminton court without your raquet?
how do you feel you want to play floorball competition but not training for it for the past month?
well, simply speaking. u just feel sucky about it. u feel defeated, despair, disappointed.
sometimes, u can just forsee that you will be the loser. like failing your CT's, didn't get into exco, didnt get into the competition team for the year. but then you realise, its no one to blame. you created this mess yourself. who ask you to study for CT's only one week beforehand? who ask you to be in such bad relation with the current Exco and make urself such an asshole when u always be valid excuse for missing trainings? who ask you to apply for so many external programes such as STaR programme and get yourself locked in the lab from 830 to 6pm everyday and end up missing all the floorball trainings?
now i understand what knd of mess that i got myself into. my mom kept on bugging me to quit one of my CCAs (i.e. badminton, research, sapphires, floorball and handong's S cube). I am struggling between choosing loyalties and interest. (eh.. i just realised that one of the GP sample question was "there are no permanent loyalties, only permanent interests exist, DYA?". haha, what a coincidence!) my loyalties and interests lie in badminton, my interests lie in floorball, my loyalties lie in sapphires and Scube.
sometimes, i question myself,am i thinking too highly of myself? or am i just too engrossed with beefing up my portfolio with these commitments which might just be loyalties? are my interest really passion-driven interests or just selfish-driven interests?
anyway... shall think of something else for the time being coz its CELEBRATION TIME!!! (i was looking forward to floorball. but....)
Downloaded many songs recently, don't know why. always get distracted when doing work and often go online to dl songs instead. but i download nice songs of course! downloaded some old songs, like S.H.E's 美丽新世界. WOW! that's going to be a classic in a few years to come. when that song hit the charts 6 years ago, the three of them are still 'nobody' in the Asia music industry and i just started listening to chinese songs during my sec one year. but now, they are like one of the strongest groups around with likes of Mayday and F.I.R, even 5566 have faded out. though the song is a bit old, but i like it's catchy tune and the lyrics: simple, but yet bring out the positive attitude that we should have in life. Just bought their most recent album, "play", realised that they really have changed. the songs that they record are so unlike the songs they sang when they first entered the industry. you might be wondering why i bought their album when i can just download it off from the net. well, i believe that good singers deserve that hole i am burning in my pocket.i downloaded that old song because i couldnt find that song in my com. i used to have the music file. but don't know where it went to already.
wah... that's a long post. hope some people will read it and find it meaningful. much unlike the maths & girl post. haha
OH. At hindsight, i think, i shouldn't have looked at the girl, should have focussed more with maths consultation. that's why im going to get a C.
umm, think i should change blog skin. i have been using this skn for the past 2 years!
Read, You Must...7:42 AM