Tuesday, April 10, 2007
had a weird dream ytd night... dreamt that i was kissing a girl. okay.. this sounds wrong, like which girl will be in the wrong state of mind to kiss me. but dreams, are dreams, not reality. it was SO real, perhaps surreal, that i overslept. reminds me of this love song, Reality by Richard Sanderson.
met you by surprise, i didnt realise
that my life will change forever
saw you standing there, i didnt know i cared
there is something special in the air
dreams are my reality, the only kind of real fantasy,
illusions are a common thing
i try to live in dreams
it seems that if it is meant to be
dreams are my reality, a different kind of reality
i'll dream of loving in the night
and loving seems alright
although it's only a fantasy
talking about kissing... umm... noticed that there are some (obvious) couples hanging around, doing what couples are supposed to do. sometimes, it can be touching at times to see people caring for each other, those little words and little actions which carries a litte message of love perhaps? (really depends on how u define couples) it do stir some envy among those single people, but that doesnt mean we should be desperate. no, i'm not.
phantom of the opera was indeed a great production. though im alrd a fan of it before the musical even arrived, the feeling of watching the play itself is totally amazing. the props are really good, and i guess the organisation of the props is really sophisticated due to the type of scenes that it has to show. another thing that makes phantom of the opera such a great production is its storyline. it has a touching storyline where the phantom learned that christine lied to him to save raul, though he gave everything she has as her mentor for singing. There was this part where it really sparked me to think... when raul ask phantom to be compassionate and free christine, then phantom screamed back at him, saying that the world show no compassion to him.
i guess he is right... how many times in our lives do we look down on those who are 'abnormal' when we know we shouldn't be doing so? i was watching After hours on monday night, and there was this part about April's (Joanne Peh) hope of rekindling a relationship with her ex-boyfriend. When she really had the chance to see him, she realised that he met an accident and became a cripple. at that point of time, she just couldn't hide that disappointment she has in her eyes, and felt really guilty after that. i guess it really takes some courage to overcome this kind of mental barriers.
talking about compassion... i just realised our school can be quite a cruel place to be in. what happened last week was that i only realised that i need to hand up some IBN form to mr chan by 1pm on thursday morning. i was really lucky that jiayi had an extra copy of the forms, so he kindly gave his extra one to me. during lunch, i rushed down to the bytes to type out some personal statement required for the IBN forms. when it was my turn to print, the printer broke down with a piece of paper jammed inside! so i called mr chan and he asked me to go sigma lab to print... and it is free to print there as well! just when i thought my salvation arrived, the devil made his entrance. i walked into the sigma labs and KINDLY (really kind.. a bit like a beggar) asked the lady lab tech whether i can borrow her printer and print my personal statement. i dont know what went across her mind, but she implicitly rejected me by saying that i should have completed the forms earlier given that i was notified in advance. she was so resolute that i doubt that the most concentrated acid in the lab can melt her down... so i had no choice but to find alternatives. there was this point of time where i thought that i should go down on my knees to beg her, but on second thought, i dont think i will have the guts to walk out of the labs to face the world as i lost my dignity to just some asshole. i called mr chan again and he said i had the RIGHTS to print at the lab. so i walked back in and KINDLY (yes.. really kind like: "sorry to disturb you again, but mr chan asked me to print it here, would u mind helping me?") asked her for her assistance. and this time, i went through another door and saw that she was playing SOLITAIRE!!!! COULD YOU BELIEVE IT?! our school pay this asshole money to sit in the sigma labs, one person enjoying the air con while listening to music and playing solitaire?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? OMG, my dear mrs C***g, u just wasted another $2000 in hiring this kind of people? and guess what? when i told her mr chan asked me to print there.. she didnt believe me, totally doubted my honesty and called back to mr chan and asked "nick, u let him print arh? .... but he didnt do the forms when he is supposed to do so and u want to help him?" @$(!*@&#(!@$^ she was like.. stepping on me, not realising how dire the situation was (it was like 1:30pm)? but in the end, mr chan convinced her and she let me used the printer.. and i even THANKED her on my way out. i was talking to charleen that night and she said that i was supposed to be ANGRY!!!! and i was right in keeping my dignity.
i dont know how many of you will read this (if u read this entry.. pls post some comments). this is not meant to derograte our school. just that some people are such an asshole.
reflecting on the past few months... damn, time passed really fast, it is alrd the 5th week of term 2! so much has happened in this few months. yea.. one thing to mention, i wrote like.. 5 personal statements for the past 3 months for applications for many stuff. again, i would like to talk about orientation... it was truly an unforgetable journey with this batch of J1s and i made many new friends (some not even knowing their names!! haha) in the mainstream cohort. though it really pains me to hear mainstream people talking about how bad IP is.
joined floorball during feb and starting to like the game. not that im not committed to badminton or i hate badminton now, but i just feel that floorball makes me feel more at home. less politics, more about friendship and bonding, something which badminton really lacks. i joined floorball because i want to be a TEAM player, which badminton cannot give me. to a certain extent, badminton is an individual or paired sport, coz on the court, u are physically (not mentally) alone, unless u are playing doubles.
GP has become a "hate-able" subject without ms. jasmine seah. the whole class missed her!!! everyone is complaining about ms. XXX's ineffective and sardonic (not sure whether this word was used) style of teaching. ms. seah... please come back to teach us!!!! moving on to something happier.. MR HEAH IS OUR GP TEACHER!!!! (applause please..) damn! he is such a cool and funny guy and really penetrating and evaluative with his comments on our work, he is ranked on the same level as jasmine seah okay!
I'm so happy that i go through MOE-OSAP and im going to london in july to represent singapore in a science conference, not to mention that there will be visits to cambridge, oxford, warwick, bristol and canteburry! though i applied for the MIT (massachusetts institute of technology), justin is the lucky guy who got it. CONGRATS DUDE!
I guess this is good enough for an update eh... back to my no-life now...
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