Wednesday, June 29, 2005
umm... in a flash, school reopened for three days already. seems that im back to school mode now.
it seems that there is this invisible wave that swept into 05IP03.
it changed people's attitudes. towards me, towards learning and towards new teachers (learning environment).
i felt that the class began to split very clearly into groups now. i felt very pissed in school yesterday. for one reason or the another. as i came home half dead, battered and torn. i just felt like sleeping and shutting myself from the world around me. and when the moment i did this, i pissed my father off. all i want is to give myself a BREAK from all the day's stress and coughing. but all he wants is my uniform and to get it washed early so that he can enjoy himself in front of the com at night listening to his favourite radio programmes. i just dont know why he can get pissed with me so easily since the start of the year. every 3 months we will have a big quarrel and we simply shut our doors on each other. oh wells...i shan't talk too much. or else ppl think i have family problems.
so with no mood of doing anything... i just closed my room's doors and slept. that results to me cheonging to revise maths tonight.
i cant find my sec one geography notes!! they are my blood and soul for geography exams last year, and with them gone... i need to make my own notes all over again... ARGH!!!
today was a bit better. but still someone (sitting close to me) is getting on my nerves?!?!?! argh!!! but i just find that class isnt that lively anymore. not like the vibrant class that we were last time. even the once nonsensical wilbert does not talk that much anymore.
whenever i say something... there would ought to be ppl against me. i feel so bad... like as if im making our lives worse when i say that there is a class blog in existence. THIS IS THE INTERNET! ppl have freedom to look for our blog what. if she really wants to know, im sure she will find out just like the way mr ho found our class blog.
but the way home was better... though i didnt caught up with some ppl*, but i joined the IP05-ers home. actually, i didnt even know all their names. all i know is Jess and Xinyuan. haha.. becoz one WAS with Jiayi and the other is in my chinese class... haha. talking with them is different with talking to 03-ers. perhaps they dont really know what happens in my class and hence we discuss things on a wider picture.
to be continued.. dinner time...
Read, You Must...1:42 AM