Friday, June 03, 2005
Oh man, i feel damn sian for these 2 days. no sch, no training. all i did was play, eat and shit. apart from doing june break bonanza, not a very nice holiday package. lol. i was flipping through my notes while doing them. i think my brain is a bit retarded during holidays. all those maths problems are attacking my stupid brain. hehe. still got tutorials and chinese book review havent do yet.
But there is one good thing that im not sian. SLEEP!!!! now i truly understand the meaning of holidays. it is truly a BREAK for goodness sake. all those CNY, Good friday, labour day, Vesak day, are just working days with extra hours. June hols are REAL. get it? REAL, TRUE. try poking your arms, and you find that you are not dreaming but this is a reality. you are sleeping from 12 all the way to 10 in the morning. (im sure that there are ppl that wake up after 12 noon) no alarms, no sch bell.
sighs. i think this happens to everyone. in the midst of all those happiness, joy and laughter, often we have this small little room in our heart that is causing some sense of bad, guilt and disappointment. It seems hard to enjoy things fully. Even if i bought a new OP sling bag today. i only felt that money went out of my wallet. nothing much. no excitement at all. after i win in a com game, there is also no sense of achievement.
i began to miss 03. Yes Everyone. i miss the togetherness we all had. for the past six months. we endured hell lot of hardship, sleepless nights, food from KAP, the times where we are at oasis revising for exams, copying each other's maths tutorials at the canteen tables. i miss all these times, although they are all about work, assignments and projects, not to mention our GPA. IRONICALLY, i miss school. sounds funny for a "mugger" like me?
stay together, we must
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